the past few days has been like SHIT for me . well except yesterday anyway. its like shit cos of school and classmates . firstly the stupid chemistry SPA sparked off evrything . so what if i didnt get the right answer ? you dont have to bloody go around comparing answers . so what if i did it differntly from you ? thats how some of my classmates are . comparing their oh-so-wonderful answers and making ppl ard them feel so LOW , DUMB AND LOUSY . i cant stand it either . i suck at practicals . i can never get anything right . sure got someth wrong somewhere . dunno whats wrong with me . bleah anyway i dont care anymore bout whatever stupid spa , i dont care bout my class . i hate being in this class . i am so not suited for triple science . how can i understand ?! i dont even wanna be some doctor , biologist , chemist , physics expert . or some mathematician or some historian or WHATEVER . i cant do all these things for nuts . so WHY am i in 3/7 ? cos i was so stupid to hav worked so hard last year . whats the point of being in 3/7 . its so bloody strict with all the countless prefects and competitive nerds . wth . i wanna turn back time and not study . infact i DIDNT even do well in my maths and science last year ! like HELLO ? i dread going to school all cos of THIS . and the worst thing is i feel freakin out of place in this class . i cant seem to find someone that is really truely a friend . so then i seem like so down and depressed whenever school starts. the fun starts only after school where i meet mich and li anne (: ARGH . i'm soooo confused bout EVERYTHING in my life .

i'm confused bout church, my cell group .
i'm confused why God let some of my friendships end .
i'm confused bout my class . school .

i dont understand . and i dont wanna understand . its too tiring . i feel so dead .