WEDNESDAY

li anne's birthday today ! our original plan was to actually celebrate it today by you noe, or even take two days off. but since all these things had happened yeah everything was ruined. anyway me and mich actually planned to make li anne our version of an all american breakfast today but, hahs that would mean waking up really early in the morn and me going over to mich's house. but unfortunately it was like so late in the nite already. and we all needed our beauty sleep. so we settled on after school instead. so after school, th 4 of us again went were together but ethel had to go so the 3 of us went to mich's house to prepare somthing special for li anne and practise our cooking skills !! hahs.

so afetr our spaghetti, me and mich went to the kitchen to think of something to create. hahas. one of our many choices, were some omelette thingy or some weird creation and li anne had to aet it no matter what hahas . but since we were already so full, we made dessert in the end. so i suggested something to do with milo, and mich took out a drumstick icecream. so while we were racking our brains, mich suddenly decided to cut up the ice cream cone ! and put one half of it inside the hot milo somemore ! and suddenly i just dunno why but mich insisted on putting TWO GRAPES into the milo and icecream!! HAHAS so i was sooo shocked and everything but we were laughing away and it was o funny ! so the moment we served li anne our creation , she was like shocked and laughing at the same time. hahs so yeahh she tried it, but it would go nicer with iced milo ! ((: hahas. took pics too. will post them soon. so far the day was a good one. thank God=)

THURSDAY

today school was not bad too. went out for lunch with nic and linette opp school cos had BORING bio tutorial after that ! so we ordered this new creation by the coffee shop called nescafe cino, like hot nescafe coffee, condensed milk and some foam thingy on top. we shared it and surprisingly the coffee really did worked cos during bio we were surprisingly awake !! it so does wonders. so after that went home in a cab(yay) with the mich li anne and ethel. so once i got home, had to quickly start on hw as had dance later in th evening and had piles of hw to do by tmr kaes !! ohh yar today at school, met karyn while walking to the toilet. so she asked how's church and so i asked her how come she hasn't been coming to church. so she said she's attending city harvest now ! cos her dad's attending there so he wants her to follow him there. so i was really quite shocked so i told her bout kerin too. oh yeah, kerin has officially decided to go to city harvest already. i cant believe this is happening ! that means she'll never be coming back to fcbc and all ! i mean wont she even miss us ?? but well she says she's really happy in her new cell group. i mean like that i already feel so like heart-pain, what more poor shawnie? since one more of her girls has also gone to city harvest. gosh. what is happening to my cell?? its getting smaller and smaller !! now its only me, sha , adrina, nicole and susie left. i just miss that sense of BIG family-ness when we were still at pea's side. come to think of it, i miss it back there, and i wished we had never changed tribe at all. so now karyn and kerin has gone to city harvest, and i just think sha is like very likely to go too since her parents are there already !

anyways, i just got ready for dance rehearsal at tct . and she's like probably with him , which is like her boyfriend now, celebrating his birthday. and she even said she most prob would be late for dance. i mean, punctuality is like something NOT to be treated lightly. and now since my rep is sorta like ruined already, i cant afford to ruin it more. so since i thought she was not coming since she's like forever not replying my msges when i ask her if she's going for dance . its so obvious that she doesnt take dance seriously. but now, i wont care anymore, cos its bout me and God for dance rehearsals, not me , her and God. so yeah i arrived into the audi, samantha twinkle and rachel were there only so they asked me where's she? so i said i dunno i think she isnt coming. which seems like it. BUT den she suddenly turned up together with clarissa and chrislyn. so of cos i was quite shocked suddenly see her. anyways she didnt even tell me anything bout all this ! so from now onwards, i'm not gonna give a damn bout what she does cos people like her are just not worth being friends with, cos they only let you down.

anyways things between us werent really good that nite. but its good also . yeah so anyways this sun i'll be dancing again. kingdom come and the time has come (: yupps so anyway after the whole thing we gotta get into our groups and prayed. i'm so glad i got candy as my group leader ! she's so nice lar and super funny too !! yupps so after i got home, bathed and den got started with ALL that hw. den finallly i couldnt take it and went to sleep bout 1 plus. argh talk bout sleepiness !!

FRIDAY (TODAY !!)

today was a nice day too but everyone in class was really sleepy can. almost everyone stayed after 12 just to finish up the hw. some even slept at 4am ! come on, give yourself a break and get some beauty sleep man ! yeahh so was trying desperately to keep awake during all those boring lessoms. ok so during chem, mrs boo was like telling us that she went to google herself on blogs the other day and found a whole list of student's blog talking bout her. and she said that she even saw a blog with her pic in it and she was like ' but i really really never teach that girl!" and like how come she has my pic? den suddenly someone said that it was actually rebecca's blog ! and they took the pic of her when she wasnt looking ! hahas. yeah. anywyas. during a maths, the class was like begging mrs heng to tell us a story, so when she said " when i was in sec 3..." me , nic and caroline were like ohh no not that one again ! but guess wad? turns out its mrsheng actually told us that she had some female crush on this pe teacher and that she joined netball but couldnt catch any balls. ahahs. den we were seriously like " errrrrmm.. " hahs. anyways that was like so brave of her to tell us that ! i mean these things are usually you noe.. not so supposed to tell the whole world.

yeah anyways today supposed to have drama but the 4 of us pretended that we had not seen the drama board which said " change of plans , EVERYONE must come for drama " oh wells who ask them, so last minute so too bad ! hahs ! ((: yeahh just talked to adrina just now on msn , den she asked me if i was angry with her so i just told her in the end. hahhs now everythings back to normal with her and me. wait must upload the crzy pics we took on sunday !!

this was taken behind the promise land rainbow ! but argh my hand looks kinda wrong here !

and there were people staring at us while we posed !

another crazy shot ! hahas gosh i cant believe it. anyways there's more i'm gonna put on friendster.

its almost the end of the week again ! hmm. i must say this week has really been both very good and really bad. but anyways i shall start with monday, the first day of school which was ultra-ly HORRIBLE ):

MONDAY

of cos since it was the first day of school after such a nice, wonderful and long hoilday. i felt totally crap bout going back to school ! argh and whats worse is sbout how shit my day was ! wells firstly it happened during cme. and yeah. i shan't talk bout it cos i've already gotten over it with God' s help of cos (: but still that event really traumatised me ! really really ! but its ok already., so of cos on the first day of school there was obviously drama. so as always the four of us, me , michelle, li anne and ethel, didnt wanna go. so we thought we'd just head off to bedok interchange to have lunch and den go back to school after that. so we had a really LONG lunch at long john's AND guess what ? by the time we finaaly ate finish, it was too late to go back since we were sure gonna be late and end up bein sent home. so after that me mich and li anne wanted to continue watching legally blonde 2 , but ethel had to go, as we were watching it halfway during history at school. yeah i noe. watching a bimbo movie during history ? ohh but who cares i totally like that show ! so we went to rent it at lianne's house nearby, and watched the movie. BUT guess what in the end? the 3 of us ended up snoozing for certain parts of the show ! i guess we were all pretty tired. so while there we were also discussing bout tmr, and how shit our day will be AND how shit it was already today ! wells as today's trauma was bad enough, i just couldnt bring myself to go school again. what more the problems now i'm facing adding to the load . so of cos we discussed at nite and den it was settled ! yeah so i also told nic that i wasnt going to school tmr cos had just so much problems and i wanted to take a break. which is VERY true. and surprisingly she was so nice and caring bout it. thank god for her (:

TUESDAY

went to 'school' with mich and li anne today. ok so i took a cab down to li anne's place first since mich wasnt ready yet. so yeah after the 3 of us were in her house, we were actually supposed to get ready and go to east coast and get an mc too. but us being us, as you noe, just couldnt get our butts off the chair and outta the house. so guess wad we spent doing the whole time ? posing for pics and playing around with the cam , we'll put it up in our newly created friendster asccount too ! and we even slept ! SUDDENLY halfway through sleepin, my hp rang ! and it ringing is NOT a goo sign ! and it was my home calling, and that means it was mom !! so of cos i got the ultimate shock of my life ! but i didnt pick it up and i panicked !! so in the end mom smsed me and said to call her cos it was urgent . so we were trying to think of all possibilities on what it was, like accident or someth ?? so in the end i called mom and she told me to come home . so i said ok . so during that i called her a few times and went to have lunch together at nearby eastpoint. and by th e time i came home it was bout 3 plus. but mom brought eugene and hannah to the east coast !! omg luckily we didnt go there ! thanks to our lazy butts for once ! so yeah. had tuition and bathed and had dinner. but thoughout this while , my parents had not said a single thing to me yet. but i already knew what it was, the school called and my parents already noe all bout it. cos mich's one also kena. lucky for li anne, she didnt get any calls at all. but surprisingly they hadnt yelled at me or anything yet.

so after i bathed , dad and mom called me outside to the living room cos they wanted to talk! so yeah i went like really really nervous and all . so i sat down. and the first thing they asked me was ' are you very troubled?' so duh i said yes , cos i really am. den they told me that even hui bo commented during tuition. haiz. what to do? couldnt help feeling so down with all those problems. so they asked me what it was and i didnt wanna tell yet so they asked me whether i knew what i did wrong today. so of cos yeah i nodded. but they were so nice bout it , talked to me calmly and all. so den i poured out everything bout how we planned and what we did. so they asked me my reason for doing so, so of cos it was all those problems. but at first didnt wanna say, so after a long long while, i finally confessed, and den it came. all the tears and everything. i cried like super alot while telling . haiz. so after everything , my parents prayed for me an d everything , prayed really powerfully until i could reaLLY FEEL God's presence and everything. so after praying, i told om alll bout whats going in church no, and especially my cell group. its so saddening. so mom prayed for me again, and this after these two very powerful prayers, i felt so renewed and different ! like God had entered my life once again ! its really such a wonderful feeliing. and so i learnt to trust God with all my heart again, and believe and love him again with all my heart. i just so wanna thank God that my parents didnt even scold me at all even though they were really angry and they even understood my reasons for doing what i did today. i just couldnt ask for more ((: and so i went to school again tmr morning. with MUCH better results ! anyways here are the crazy pics we took !

posing at the 'belt' shop

us smiling at the old days

and for the even older

gosh its been a long time. wells anyways i'll just blog briefly bout my week. wells so i finally asked mich and lianne if they can come to church this sunday for the miracle weekend ! its been a long time since we talked. so after that me and mich were like discussing bout stupid holiday homework and stuff so we decided to meet on thurs at my house to get some done.
so when i met mich on thurs i found out like sooo many interesting things i didn't expect to happen to her ! but mostly we just talked away. hahas so much for homework. anyways since mich was telling me bout this guy nigel and everything. i was just thinkin whether i should finally tell her bout him on friday as i was going to her new house to do homeework again. i mean she has so something to do with it ! but wells in the end i didnt. guess the time's just not right yet. hahs. so yeah. on friday night, me mich and lianne were conferencing again. den we were just discussing bout lianne's bdae. sooo.. hahas we decided to.. you noe !! cant say here. its dangerous . so anyways yeahh. so the rest of the week has nothing much to say. just that i feel so crap thatr this is the last weeek of the hols. and i hate school ! seriously totally hate school. i dont wanna study anymore. wells at least not in singapore. i cant stand it, i wish i could like study in australia or something. haiz but no.

anyways today was quite a fun day. lianne and mich couldnt make it in the end. but anyways i danced in peace. hiaz. i just dunno why but me and adrina were standing at the side of the hall. i was kinda hoping we'd get the middle. maybe its punishment. yar so today was special cos we could get to sit with our cell members. but no ! cos before service me and adrina put our bags down at b5. and we told shawnie. but when we went back . all we found were unknown strangers sitting beside the 2 of us. so sha msged me and we decided to meet her at the toilet so that maybe we could sit together. so off we went with out bags. but in the end, both us had to sit alone togeter again somwhere else at block c there. but it was more spacious. so thats good. so the moment we went into expo hall 9, its so cool ! cos they were having the children's carnival ! but i really didnt expect it to be so elaborate !! its really totally cool !! with streamers, banners, inflatable floats, pirate ships ! its really reallycool, den they were like ppl dreesing up like clowns, princesses, mascots, and a stupid fairy as well . its so cool. so after service, shawnie left in the end, haiz, and so did sha, so left me and adrina. pathetic 2 of us trying our desperate best to find a seat where we could eat our really late lunch. oh wells we finaaly managed to get 2 chairs without tables. so there. den after our lunch, we decided to have fun as adrina suggested at trhe children's carnival. so we bought the ticket thing and went off. i mean , what ? they said all youths are welcome !! and wwe're not the only ones. so we went to get like candy floss, and adrina went to the beauty land where there was this nail, hair and face parlour. where you can get funky hairstlyes, glittery nails and cool facepaints ! so adrina went to do her nails. and i must say it rocks !! i would have done it too. but so wasted tmr there's BLOODY school !! ARGH !!
yeah so anyways after we got bored we satdown at our place again and found 2 party hats and streamers. den the both of us were like clowning around laughing madly and posing for pics on my fone cam with all our wonderful props !! and like i think alot of ppl must have been staring at us, especially this old lady who was also smiling along at us ! so embarrassing ! but its worth all the fun !! i'll post the pics onlie soon ! i totally love it ! so thats my day ! i'll be dancing next snday too. oh yeahh btw, at dance on thurs nite , me and adrina found out we are in candy's group !! yay ! like we hoped !

today was a mixture of both good and bad events. wells firstly i waited for shawnie to come pick me up at 1230pm at my house toggether with kerin and nicole. so off we went to siglap to eat cafe cartel ! the car ride was so fun and we were laughing all the way ! so then when we reached there , we ordered SUCH a spread ! the pasta set meal, potato wedges, lasagbe , and pork ribs ! nicole was like on cloud 9 since the set meal came with free flow of bread . hahas and she kept suggesting that we ' ta pao ' some bread home ! then everyone was like ' nicole !! " hahas ! we even took a whole loaf of bread and many butters to share among us thanks to dear nicole ! i was having so much trouble cutting the bread up that i didnt realise that i looked like i was murdering the bread! until shawnie said that she never seen me so rough before ! haahs am i really that gentle ?? so anywasy halfway thru eating , sha came to join us after her lunch at tm and yeahh we all had a reallly great time at cafe cartel !

so after lunch , cos kerin wanted to go to far east to get a present for clement ! oooh ! hahas . so we all decided to go there except nicole. so kerin went home to get some money first, but in the end guess wad she got ? 50 bucks ! taken from her mom's wallet when she was half asleep ! oooh lucky girl! so anyways since shawnie had a dinner appointment at orchard later , we all went back to shawnie's house so she could change first. so since sha didnt wanna go home for dinner since her mom was creating this new smashed green vegetable thingy , she wanted to have dinner outside, so kerin also could, but as for me , knowing how bloody unreasonable my mom is i knew long time ago the answer was no. but i still asked anyways and she wanted shawnie to call her. den sha was like going on and on how strict my mom is, and like how i'm already grown up. i mean i already feel so pissed bout my mom and she still has to keep on rubbing it in. so ?? its not like its my fault wad. den since shawnie called mom den mom was like wad is vanessa wearing? den shawnie told me that my mom doesnt like me to wear shorts go orchard. den sha was like ' why? ' in that kind of ' its not a crime ' kinda tone. thta i felt SO uncomfortable and i was starting to get really really pissed. so yeah in the bloody end i coulnt stay for dinner. so all the way in the car i was like keeping quiet lar. but in times like this, all i want is to be left alone for a while and let me cool down. but unfortunately sha kept on asking me questions and cheering me up even when she was actually part of the source of my pissed off-ness. and this is not the first time also. i mean do they even noe how i feel?? at least kerin didnt say anything much wad. do they even noe how i'm struggling with it? cant they just accept it and STOP trying to pressurise me to ask my mum things that i noe are definitely gonna end up as a negative. besides i cant stand the way m mom treats me. its not like i'm some little girl and evrything. she just DOESNT trust me and worst of all, kerin and sha are YOUNGER than me yet they get more trust and freedom. what is this ?? and worst still i'm the oldest child and its always like that whne you are the oldest ! everything just suckslike shit . ARGH !!

so anyways after cooling down when we walked to far east at orchard i was starting to feel better already. so but go shopping also no use. don't even have enough money. but kerin huh. lucky girl. so in the end we just walked around. look here and there . see all the nice stuff. oh yar and shawnie was so nice cos each of us only paid 5 bucks for the cafe cartel meal while shawnie paid the rest and the bill was like almost 50 bucks . so anyways we could den apply for the student privelage card so in the end guess wad name we used for the card ?? shawnie's cell !! so anyways since shawnie was going to bangkok this wed and she was asking us wad we wanna buy and everything ! sigh. how can kerin go when she has SUCH a nice cell leader like shawnie ?? anyways the four of us were seriously so tired that we walked backed to the car park where shawnie parked her car and just sat in her car , listened to music and rested. sigh then we were talking bout all the old fun times we had together , and all the wonderful camps ! and all of us really missed the ohana camp we had at sentosa one day later, two years ago ! wow time really passes so fast ! its actually been two years ! so anyways it was laready time to get up and start moving. shawnie was going to meet her friends while the 3 of us were going home, sha didnt noe whether to go home or hav e dinner outside, cos earlier on when i couldnt go for dinner . she was like ok den i also dun wanna go alr. den i kept on saying that just go just go. cos i felt like i was holding them back but she still keep on insiting. so fine lor its her choice anyways, i didnt force her to do it. so in the end we were all hungry, so went to 7 -11 at somerset there , grabbed a bite and the latest seventeen and we just all decided to go to starbucks for a drink. so we ordered the 2 banana frappucino thingys and shared it. mmhm it was so delish ! so after that i noticed sha's hp on the table and i had a feeling she was going to forget it, knowing her hahs. so i reminded her before she left so i assumed she heard me. but in the end halfway thru walking , she realised her hp was missing ! that girl ar. hahas anywyas she found it back, or else we'd never noe how she'll survive without it. so in the end we just all went home taking the mrt (cab preferred) but no choice cos we were broke. and i really owe kerin man, who paid for our drinks ! so when sha already left, ( she forgot her shoe bag again ! ) hahas , kerin was telling me that she actually attended the chc cell alr and she feels very comfortable there. and even the cell leader is going to come visit kerin tonight at her house for some bible study thingy. sigh even her mom now encourages her to join chc cos she can grow better there. but ultimately its her choice, even after hearing kerin talk bout how she was so touched by the sermon , i realised that she also can grow better there. but still during lunch shawnie said ' no poaching " as in like take our ppl and bring to the other side, i mean i also feel really indignant bout it. ( i dont really noe the meaning of that word, but who cares , i'm using it ! ) i mean how can they do that ? hello? spare a tot for us fcbcians and stop taking our ppl. argh. no offense but i just feel like they 're just.. yeah. hmmm so thats all for this day den ~

Hey today was seriously and extremely eventful day. like so many things happened man!! gosh anyways today was church day so yeah . so I woke up this morning and prepared to get ready and blah blah tihnkin I was supposed to meet adrina at 12plus. But in the end , only after I finished getting ready she called and told me that yeah wells she’s still at home and don was coming to church too. hmmm should have woken up later den. anyways i was quite happy bout my outfit was great today :)) hahas. so guess wad today was the first time that i was late to go to church at expo. so in the end after i met adrina at tanah merah we cheonged down stairs to get a cab. and it was SUCH a long wait can !! anyways we were damn worried that we would get locked out ! so while in the cab i got a call from dear sha saying that she just woke up ! ahahah nvm expected lar. so in the end she couldn’t come for church already. haiz so yeah. so the moment we reached expo we seriously RAN man and quickly met don. but just SO glad and so surprising the gates were still open and people were still streaming in even though it was already 1.40++ thank god !! ((: so when we went into the hall it was totally pitched black except the stage which was like blasting of sounds and coloured lights !! we felt seriously lost ! cos it was like way dark . and i was like wow this really feels like i’m in some concert! and it is the first time i actually noticed how cool and concert-like my youth service was , since i’m usually early most of the time ! so after we found our seats we ran in front for worship again and met susie nicole and shawnie . yay today we sang open up the gates , shepherd and the time has come ! den me and adrina as usual were dancing subtly to the steps as always ! especially shepherd ! gosh i love that song !! yayayayayay anyways next week we’ll be doing that song!! hais den after worship and during service i was trying my super best to just look out for someone , but that person was just nowhere to be found ): hmmm i wonder whether the person came..

so after service we had cell and today we were talking bout taking things for granted . so when we went to sit down at the cafeteria there , i suddenly saw SOMEONE but who cares bout her so i just turned around and faced back to my cell members again. so in the end that girl together with her friends moved to the front where i could see them even if i tried not too so adrina dragged don to go disturb tua liap. HAHAS. but of cos i didn’t go. just watched from the distance. hahs. so anyway that girl was like turning around to look sorta of like beyond me but in my direction. gosh i can like so see it that its on purpose. humph. den all the while she was giving me that super bitchy face that i felt like slapping it. i mean hello?! like whats your problem ?? i didn’t do anything to offend you , so there ! hmm so i tried to not CARE bout her but she keeps looking in my direction and doing that face. like puhlease i cant be the least bothered by your bitchy ways. apparently from what i heard from sha that girl keeps telling tua liap that me kerin and adrina are always ganging up at her , and always staring at her like she’s some sorta freak. i mean hello? we like mind our business. its her that keeps on looking at us that’s why we do it back . as for sha , she doesn’t even noe what that girl looks like so duh ! of cos she doesn’t stare at you. but even if she knew, do you think she’ll actually look at you ? yeah as if you're like what ? a pageant queen ? arghh. so anyways tua liap went to ask sha if there was a cold war going on between my cell and HER cell. i mean hello? we seriously cant be bothered with her. so why doesn’t she just STOP making stupid things up to gain all her kors sympathy and pampering ?? just like that time she claimed that adrina knocked into her. i mean that is SO NOT TRUE !! adrina just pretend-stomp past her. BUT in the first place adrina didn’t even noe that she was beside her !! the reason adrina stomped was to like to pretend-show me, sha and kerin that she’s angry. i mean it has so nothing to do with her in the first place. SO IRRITATING !!! ANYWAYS I CANT BE BOTHERED ALREADY.

yeah so during cell i received a sms from clement saying that ‘ hey kerin wants me to tell you that she has moved to chc and has a new cell there! ‘ so the moment i read the msg i was like ohmygosh ! what ??!! so i quickly grabbed adrina and let her read it. her reaction was the same as well. den we were like KERIN!! DON’T GO! WE’LL MISS YOU! so den i faster showed the mag to shawnie too ! yeahh and she got such a shock too ! actually deep down i feel like sooo sad and just soo down. i mean i just realized how much kerin means to all of us, and to me as well ! i also realized that yeah i've been taking her presence for granted and that’s what today's cell topic was about ! especially the part where ' and she has a new cell there ' really stung me. and i think for shawnie and adrina as well. i mean it just gave me that feeling of 'abandonment' like ' what? you don’t want us anymore??' i mean all along after her parents moved to city harvest , she'd been reassuring us that she had decided to stay with us and her mom gave her a choice to choose, and she chose to stay here. but y suddenly just totally change like that ?? so den shawnie msg kerin and everything and tmr i'll be going with shawnie to meet kerin for lunch. and hopefully she’ll just pls pls change her mind !! but den me and adrina were just thinking , what if sha also goes?? i mean her parents just moved there too !! if sha really goes, omg, i really seriously have no idea what we’re going to do already !

so on the way home with shawnie , she was quite upset about the whole kerin thing. but yeah so am i !! kerin please please don’t go kaes !! we all love you very very much !! so this is it den.

ok so now i'm blogging bout thursday. well talk about late. anyways. thursday i woke up to a totally piercing headache! i felt super giddy. but oh wells i tot nothing of it since i rarely get sick and i had to go hurry prepare and get ready for kimberly's party. but just as i was about to leave the house, i really felt sick. had this cold feeling and a spinning head. so i just had to tell my mum , so of cos she didnt wanna let me go since i had to go there all by myself. considering what happened the last time i had a fever and dint bother bout it. i was in school, during assembly, and i totally felt like fainting. and breaking out into this cold sweat and everything was just blinding white! no way could thisa happen again cos now its in public and i'm alone and nobody to save me! so yeahh , i had to miss the party. so didnt really do anything the whole day. just sat and rested.

so there it was time to go for touchdance! its like my first priority on thursday nites! but wells sha called me to go out for dinner , but wells dance is my life, so how could i not go? den adrina called to tell me she's not going. wow what is this?? a sign i shouldnt go too?? but anyways i didnt go in the end. due to my so called fever ! and with mom not letting me " over exert" myself. haiz. den now i cant find out which group am i put into! oh wells. so den i msged the pastor, but she didnt reply. hmmm what is this huh? no comment already. well at least not here. yeah so thats it.

yupps now i shall blog bout today! today wasnt much really, just that i'm kinda happy dear adrina called to apologise for yesterday. ((: i'm happy. still love her lots. today i watched yours mine and ours and cheaper by the dozen 2 on dvd. yay i love in house movies like these ! thanks to our neighbours for the dvds!!

so here i am again to write bout what happened two days ago on wednesday. it was such a fun day as i was suppoesed to go meet sha and go shopping together! so she picked me up on her way back from school and we went off to her house. there we spent like really long getting ready, like dressing up and everything. so after we had finally glammed ourselves up, we being lazy and princessy took a cab down to cineleisure. where we also purposely arrange to bump into adrina who was with her darling don, on a date! hahs. so after that we went to have lunch at cafe cartel. yeahh, so much for our mission to save money for shopping! i ordered this oriental salad, but turns out, it tasted yucky. argh so much for my 9 bucks huh. humph so anyway we finally saw adrina and don. they were going fro a movie so we decided to catch rv too since it just came out. but. this waas shopping day and we will only shop! so we decided against it in the end.

so off we went to heeren to check some accesories out. so i bought this white necklace that will go with my outfit this sunday((: yeah so after everything. we walked to wisma , we were searching for my big retro shades so i finally got it at forever 21! yayness! wells it was actually nothing much so we went over to far east where sha also wanted to go look fro her coloured contacts. so here i've made a list on wad i wanna but. i just have to get the offf shoulder long sleeved top. cos its just totally dancey! yeah in the end we met adrina and don back agian at heeren and took a cab back together to adrina's house , where me and sha took another cab home. can you believe don is gonna have dinner at her house? i mean talk bout meeting the parents. hahas. so there this is my wednesday!

i'm baacck. actually two days ago. but wells there was so many things going on that didnt have time to blog. ok i shall start with my malaysia trip. so on friday left really early in the morn fro malacca. so by the time we reached there it was 12pm. so we went to the funeral parlour where my ah gong's body was. i was like expecting a more comfortable and nicer place but guess wad. it was this really old and run down place below this creepy old shophouse. yeah basically the whole place was creepy. well mom actually wanted to bring us to see my grandfather , and at that moment i started getting emotional. yeahh so thats why i didnt wanna see my grandfather's body first. in case i totally break down or somthing. all my cousins and evryone wernt there yet . and then later my parent's cell group came to visit us, as they were on their way to church camp in kl. so after that since there was nothing to do we went back to the hotel and rest first. oh yar. fro dinner i ate at tis really cool vintage restaurant. its so cool cos they actually have those olden day typewriter, sewing machine, telephone on display. so its really cute. den when we went back to the funeral parlour in the evening the place was already packed with quite alot of people. with all my family members plus other ppl whom i dont noe. well it was kinda boring for me cos i didnt really have anyone to talk too. its not like the old times when i was much younger where i would play with all my cousins. since now time has passed. ppl change. its getting awkward. and now all the smaller ones do is play playstation and gameboys together. i so miss those times when we created games to play and evrything. seriously miss those times kaes. haiz. wish like we could do all those fun things again. and those little ones wont be so obsessed with their gameboys and stuff.

the next day. saturday. was the day my grandfather was supposed to be cremated. so went to the parlour den our whole family had to go thru some chinese rites and stuff den there were chanting and bowing and everything. but since everyone in my extended family are christians. except for my eldest uncle and his family we didnt participate in those rites. but when the monk arrived. well we were forced to kneel, but we squatted instead. so there he was chanting somthing that sounded like indian and then we splashed some sorta 'holy' water in us. but all of us had no choice . cos we had so much pressure on us to participate since we were the deceased family. so after that we all gatheered together to pray to ask for forgiveness from God and to consecrate ourselves. so sfter that our whole family walked behind he van carrying the coffin and onto the streets. den halfway one of my aunts said that we have become a tourist attraction cos there were thios group of nigerian tourists snapping pics of us. ohh haha. den we smiled back at them and the camera. of cos all of us werent that sad and heartbroken cos of my grandpa cos we all noe he's already in heaven ((: after the whole walking around thingy, all the adults had to go to the crematorium for the cremation . so the rest of us just went back to my ah ma's house. well den after that we had this huge family lunch at one of the restaurants. i love gatherings like this!! it really gives me that kind of warm close knitted- harmony feel of my family. so after that all my grandparents children went to collect the ashes while me and my mum went shopping. where i bumped into isabel at f.o.s. i was so surprised! den after that had another family dinner at some restaurant again.
so the next day on sunday it was time for everyone to leave malacca and go back home to their own country. the saddest part was because my grandma was to be all alone in the house. we did ask gher to come home with one of us but she said she needed to settle alot of things first so yeah. den when all of us were about to leave i saw my grandma cry. so sad and touching. haiz. i just miss my grandma now after this whole thing. so me and my family l;eft to go to kl . spent two days there den after on tuesday me and my fanmily went back to malacca again to visit my grandma. at that time a pastor from the hokkien church there also went to visit her. and to arrange for her to go to church too. i could see my grandma was really happy to have company and we all prayed for her too. so when mty family was going to leave for spore my grandma cried again. den i started feeling really sad too. den i hugged my grandma. in fact all of us did. but this is like so called the first time in many many years.

yay. i'm talking to kerin and adrina, my two dearies,on the fone while blogging now ((; yupps. haiz. we're like discussing bout the camp and everything. if only all of us could go. den it'll be sooo fun lar!! haiz. yupps. this afternoon went to sha's house. poor girl had diarrhorea. so of cos i gotta go visit her. hahahs. so anyways when i went there we were like up in her room talking bout so many stuffs we havnet talked bout in a looong loong time. we frequent bestie chats . or rather gossips !! hahas. yeahhs. so sad or else we can go camp together and it'll be so fun. so we were like being crazy again. oh yeahh. that girl is such a shopaholic man. anyways thtas goos. shopping hee ~ hmmm. seems like sha's back again to her retarded self. i love her like that. ((: anyways they're more stuffs , but its too private to say here so yeah ! anyways still love her to bits lar.

tmr morning i'll be going back to malacca for the funeral. haiz. hope everythings gonna be fine. so there. coming back on tues . see ya den.

i'm back again. haiz. i'm kinda so depressed by everything. just now spoke to sha and adrina alr. wells. both of them were kinda sad that i cant go for camp, especially my dear adrina ! poor girl. now its all cos of me that she's not going as wells. haiz. and it was our only chance to really get loose and get wild together!! and now we cant )): haiz. why must this happen? i wanna noe why does God take him away just before i go for camp? so that i have to miss my camp. i wanna noe wad's his reason for doing that?? adrina dear. i'm superly sorry i gotta miss camp !! we will have to wait really long for the next one to come. but don't worry the next teens camp we'll have, which is in like during the november hols, which is like sooo long more, we shall really like totally so do our wonderful crazy and wild plans together kaes!! omg. i'll seriously miss you and the camp. it was supposed to be fun with the bbq and our midnight walk we're supposed to take at east coast park !!

yeahh. anyways i have also decided that i shall start taking up jazz classes at jitterbugs !! i tihnk its sooo cool , i mean the studio is like so nice and its in millenia wlk too ((: and i so also wanna go for studio wu's open house !! its on the 17th june . yay den they'll have free classes to take part in. gosh i cant wait ((:
just hope evrythings fine there now. like all the plannings and everything.

today morning had maths tuition at 10am. and again my teacher came 10 mins early. argh. i could do so many things in 10mins okays. yeahh so i didnt care just let her wait till i'm done. i mean my lesson's at 10 not 9.50am. so yeahh. den when i got to the room. i heard the house fone ring from outside. den mom picked it up. den she was like "hhhhuuuhhh???" into the phone. when she said that i sorta had a premonition that it was one of my relatives, calling to say that the worst had happened. cos i remember it was also like that when my great grandma passed away. den after she hung up. i culd hear mom and dad like discussing something like 'father just passed away...' , 'at 9.45am....', ' the hospital called...' the moment i heard that i felt soooo... like ' how could this happen??' kinda feeling. therefore i so couldnt concentrate during tuition. i almost wanted to tell my tuition teacher that 'my grandfather just passed away'. but i didnt lar. so as i was not concentrating on tuition, i kept trying to hear wad mom and dad were talking bout. turns out that aunt kitjing called. and dad is going away later in the afternoon back to malacca with uncle thomas to discuss the funeral arrangements with my grandma. and now we're all hoping that my grandma would change her mind to have a christian only funeral. now she wants to have both a chinese and christian one. as my grandfather was like very well known as a buddhist in the Tan clan. or something like tat. so its like those other relatives of my grandparents who will be attending the funeral are buddhist and my grandma feels it would be weird for them if they attend a christian funeral. cos they have yet to noe that my grandparents just accepted christ! so now we're all praying hard she would change her mind. cos we shouldnt be pleasing man, but God ((:
yeahh so after tuition. mom put her arm around me and gave me that look. but i alr knew wad she was gonna say so i was like ' i noe'. den she told me that we'll prob be going back to malacca around friday and the funeral will be this weekend. den they told me i gotta cancel my church camp!!! argh. i was so excited bout it and now. all my hopes and wonderful crazy plans are ruined!! so wrong timing lar. argh. but i guess family matters are more important. i'm still trying to accept it now. arghh. but still i'm gonna let like adrina and sha they all down! cos we planned so much already!! oh wells. what to do. but even though i feel kinda sad and everything especially for my grandpa's death. my parents wern't like crying or anything. guess they kinda expected it. but stilll. i feel so upset now. even though i cant cry. but mom says that ah gong died without any pain. which is a miracle. cos usually cancer patients die with like a lot of pain. anyways thats good. God took him home without any pain. he's prob like in heaven now or something. but todays like 06/06/06. do you think it has anything to do with it?? oh whatever. i'm talking rubbish. so superstitious for what? hahs . i miss my grandfather. i think i'm gonna cry lots when i go back this weekend. haiz. everyone will anyways.

actually there's drama today at 1pm. so me and lianne were trying to decide whether to go or not. wells both of us are seriously superly undecisive. hahs . thats bad. cos when it comes to shopping. i take a damn long time to decide whether i want this one or the other one. so after so long of listing out all the consequences and everything. we came to a conclusion (: hahhs. that is to not go. tahts why i can sit here in front of the com blogging this. ok thats so whatever. but still, i feel really really bad for lying. its still bugging me. but to the person: i'm superly sorry !! but i just had no choice. and dont worry. we all still love you ! hahas. ok that was so whatever too. but thats true ((: so this is it den. loves to everyone out there !

yesterday was like such a FUN day !! wells firstly cos me and adrina were dancing for youth service, so as usual, adrina came to my house early in the morn to get ready for dance like put our make up and do our hair. yupps den we went to expo together again early to get ready for dance. den came service. so we danced to kingdom come. new song. i reallly love this song and plus the dance isso cool. hahs okok nothing much though.

den after service it was time to lead cell worrship. hahas i was kind of nervous that i couldnt like carry off the worship well and stuff like that. but it was ok in the end , just like i was feeling kinda awkward. but never mind ! i'll do better next time. and i'll use my own guitar too. (: den shawnie talked bout the tabernacle camp we're gonna have next week!! YAY i'm soooo excited! cos like everyone in my cell is going.! and pray that it wont rain on sat so we can like do soo many fun things at east coast park !! like cycling, suntanning and rollerblading. yupps i so cant wait for the camp cos its like packing bags with your cell members together is so fun!
yeah so after cell, sha and kerin had to go to city harvest next door to join their parents at some emerge concert, so me and adrina stayed on for a while to eat our nachos until it was time to go. den suddenly i had this crazy idea to go next door to city harvest to like check it out!! soooo... me and adrina like sorta pretended to be city harvest people and like walk into hall 8. hahas!! den all the ushers were like welcoming us so happily. hahas we felt sooo embarrassed can!! den the moment we went in it was all lights, sounds and people! we felt soo lost man! so we just like wallked around trying to see if we can blend in with the crowd. but den those ushers like kept on asking us if we needed a seat or like where we going. it was soo pai say for us! den adrina like faster ask me to pretend to call someone to ask like where they were. yupps, hah den we pretended we were like looking for someone. so while walking we suddeenly saw some dancers and their costumes were so totally cool. like gold and white kinda things! haiz if only touchdance had such cool costumes too!! after a few mins it was starting to get ridiculous cos we were also desperately trying to find a way out!! so we just walked towards the place where it looked like te=he exit. when SUDDENLY!! we bumped into sha and kerin!! with their parents and tiffany too !! gosh we were superly superly embarrassed!! and shocked too!! hahashhs!! but it was so fun cos we were like laughing away too. den some usher like came towards us and started like questioning. haiz. no offense but we feel they're being kinda nosy even though we noe they're just doing their job. i mean fcbc 's usherers aren't like that. hahs den after that in the car adrina's dad said fcbc is BC wad. BC for "bo chap" . HAHAS . but anyways yeahh we quickly got our butts out of the place andagain i pretended to talk on the fone to pretend i was meeting someone outside hall 8. LAME us!! wells this is definitely one of our CRAZY adventures together((: but seriously i think city harvest is like so cool. all their dancers on stage were like so hip hop-ish. and they even write their own worship songs! waita min. so does fcbc. wells to me ,fcbc is the best church !!!((:

ok so when i got home , it was time to go to novotel at clarke quay for mum's buffet dinner. i think the restaurant was super cool. and they had like this chocolate fountain fondue thingy. mmmhm. it was totally yummy! gosh we all ate until soooo full. but anyways thats wad buffets are for ((: den me and mum and dad were like tmr better go exercise man!! burn those EVIL calories!! so after dinner we took a walk at clarke quay. wow the place was sooo nice and romantic too! hmmm. next time that special person so has to brng me to clarke quay to have a nice romantic walk and dinner ((: hahs

ok today i was awoken by michelle 's call saying that she was the only one there at the old folk's home. cos this week our stupid school has sent her and som other girls to do cip there. den she was telling me that the rest of the girls didnt turn up and she was the only one there! gosh so poor thing that means the rest of them actually ponned it! wells den she was saying that the 'home' was actually for those intellectually disabled ppl and there were these creepy guys sent there by the court or whatever trying to get fresh with her. like ewww. i mean the school should noe better and protect the students rite?? not let them go to some home with creepy guys. dont they like noe how dangerous that is? yeahh so anyways met mich lianne and ethel just now and we all went to pasir ris library to follow mich go borrow some books for her churh camp this weekend. but we ended up sitting on the floor talking most of the tome instead.i mean we're not really the kinds who go to the library anyways. yupps den the 4 of us went to a quieter corner by some books so that lianne can call dineesha. cos she has beeen trying to call the both of us in the afternoon. but we purposely didnt pick up! but thats cos we're scared , i mean its bout drama! and we dint go. hahhs. yeah so she put dinnesha on loudspeaker den we all gathered round the fone. hahas we looked liked we were having some secret meeting of some sorts!! yeahh it was quite fun cos we were all laughing away!!

yeah nothing much after that. time to go home and we decided we all better go for drama tmr. yupps got like two extremely sucky tuitions tmr. argh!! so yeahh.
tatas~

heys . today is saturday!! wells i woke up at like 12 something. den mum came home den she bought this pair of Lee jeans at tangs which are like on a super hot sale!! only 29.90. den mum said that there were also the skinny jeans there too! so i really wanted to go there and like buy it! but unfortunatel mummy had cell meeting and all my dearies were not free too. so yeahh. stayed at home

when i got a sms from dear adrina asking me to be her guitarist for tmr's cell worship((: so i agreed. den i quickly when to practise practise practise!! hahs. cos its been like weeks since i last touched my guitar. wells actually ever since my believer music course ended. hee~ shhh. yupps so practised like so many songs and was like trying to think of the songs for tmr's cell until got headache already!! and my fingers are sooo sore and painful!! )): oh wells. but i mustr persevere on. and somemore tmr i'm dancing for youth service too !! yayness. but still gotta really rmb and get ALL my steps right since tmr's like lord's supper and no one'll be coming infront, which makes us dancers even more obvious!!

yupps. so now dad has taken mum out for a birthday drink and some hotel. whee~ so i get to use the com in peace !! ((: okok adrina has yet to call ! we have to practise together for tmr's cell worship. humph i better go call her now den.

tatas ~~loves

heys. this week has been. wells... exciting !! and boring too. wells wells. yesterday went for touchdance rehearsal . den we learnt this new song kingdom come. cos we'll be dancing this sunday! which is also mummy's birthday! oh yeahh and guess what?? daddy bought her a uZap!! so cool ! yay den i can use it too((: and this sun we're also going to novotel at clarke quay to have a really nice buffet dinner . so the uzap will really come in handy after that!! hahs yupps so during dance everything was kinda last min and stuff but we still managed to do all the steps anyways.
hmmm. today had like dental at parkway and blah blah.