Today was great, but a little heart-wrenching. Met up with Shawn, Tiffany , Sha and Adrina for awhile before service, and seeing them just makes me feel so sad , because now I'm not part of them already. Especially darlings sha and adrina. When I think about all the fun and crazy times we had, and now its going to be gone, I can't help tearing. I miss them so much . Everyone of them, and now we're not going to be that close anymore, beacuse its all different, and kinda difficult too. But anyway after that, they walked me to my new cellgroup , and actually it was quite okay because I already know most of them there. I hope I'll be able to adapt well and stuff, even though its difficult now, but i guess its the best solution.

And today the Paradise band from australia came to play for service. Their songs are so nice, I totally love them ! And today from the sermon I 'm more aware that sin can lead to sickness. And yeah, its so true! After service, most of everyone left and so for cellgroup, rachel pea jenna wenshan and I , drove to the changi industrial park nearby, and went to the exact same shelter that me and him went the first time we met, and the memories flooded back . But whatever la, today was a sunny day, so there's alot of difference compared to last time. Anyway cell was good, and we each took walks with God around the park. and God really spoke to me and made me realise many things, like how life is going to be SO MUCH BETTER without him in it. And i believe that! After that, we found some lovegrass and took pictures with it by the pond. And i must say that park is really nice in a different way, filled with memories.

I think i really drew closer to God after today. The worship, the cellgroup time, the walk with God. All these made me feel much better about everything. And so now, I really hope to get to experience the new situations, the family bond, the fun and laughter that I used to have. Its been ages since I've felt this way. So I thank God, because he made me realise that this would be whats best to happen.

oh yay, my life is getting better so far, except for the fact that i'm forced to be stuck at home everyday that home's becoming like a prison to me, but definitely more luxurious though . the only day i could like ever go somewhere was on tuesday. with studying at the airport with Mich, Jiajun and his weird friend/maid Sean . Then had to rush back because of mom, which made me tell Mich everything that has happened to me so far. Glad she knows though, its so difficult to hide everything, and she was a great help to me too . The rest of the week is mugging mugging and more mugging. Please I do hope that I remember everything that I've studied!

Oh yeah, and so that Friday when we went back to that place, oh well, nothing happened! Great , that means the whole issue will be prolonged even more. Then they said they'll call us up again, so lets just wait and see.

And today, after Bio tuition at parkway, me and Mom met Rachel, my new cell leader. Sigh , yeah i'm gonna change cellgroup and all now. and i'll miss everyone back at Shawnie's cell terribly! But i'm glad after today, after getting to know Rachel better and stuff, I can't wait for a whole new beginning and family ! And this sunday I'll be finally going back to youth! and meeting a whole new group of people too . How exciting!

Tomorrow i'll be going to a another Chemistry group tuition with Lianne , taught by Amy too . Its in Orchard, hahahaha! yay, at least i get to go there (: ohmg, i sound like a sad no life person. But who cares , its just 7 more weeks to endure. Then once O's are over, I'm gonna shop like mad, go for manis and pedis at Dashing Diva, PARTY ALL NIGHT LONG ! and take up dance classes , do my hair and etc! So , perservering on now!