i'm soooo confused right now !! cos wells i've been thinkin bout *him for the past few days ! i hav NO idea why too . i tot i'd like gotten over him totally already .. but . like what some people say .. you can never forget your first love ? wells . i guess it is kinda true . but then again . its like i've been hearing all the good things other people say bout him and how nice or fun he actually is . and i feel like so .. missing out on everything . but then again i dont really noe his friends that well . but still ! it seems like their enjoying themselves and even if we dont work out , it seems like it'd be great having him as a friend . BUT our relationship just completely RUINED our friendship ! and i doubt we'll ever have a friendship in future . although now i kanda wished we would . but i think it'll prob be kinda difficult cos i noe there'll be feelings still standing in the way .. feelings that are bound to pop up anytime .. ARGH so now i'm just officially in a huge dilemma bout my feelings .