I've no time to blog or what nowadays . so i guess i won't be doing much after this anytime soon . and i'm not at church today, since last sunday my life is such a roller coaster ride . too many things have been happening to me lately . and they're all horrible things, distracting me . especially what happenind last sunday, 19th august . went out with Sha and Adrina before service , and something happened that changed our lives, we never made it to church. the rest of our sunday was ruined , being stuck in that horrible place for hours. It was just so scary , and i felt so many feelings i never felt before that day, and this past week . anxiety, anger , fear, shame , guilt . i've let everyone down . but then again, we've all got to accept our own consequences . maybe it was a good things that it happened , or else we'd never stop anyway . and my parents too , how disappointed they were, made me feel even worse. but Sha and Adrina , i still love the both of you no matter what happens . i'll never forget this experience , and even though i just have this feeling we're not going to be that close now onwards , i'll never forget you guys and all the things we went through together and the past two years . one day when we're all much older , hopefully we'll get the chance to look back together at all our experiences and realise how much we've been through , and even laugh about them .

Now what i really have to do is get my life back on track again. I've been such a different person the past month . and now i really thank God for having so much mercy on us, as things could've been much worse. and now there's my parents, aunty clare , the church all praying and helping me . how could i ever thank God enough , after what i've done? But i'm glad that God and everyone else is giving me a second chance , and a new beginning too, in terms of church and my walk with God . I can't wait , but yet i feel really terrible to leave everyone behind . because they were the ones who helped and moulded me first . and perhaps , i'm sorry that i've got to do this . it hurts when you think about it . next week , i really wonder what the outcome will be , but i really pray God's mercy will be on all three of us , and nothing will happen .

The other thing now is the whole Biology tuition controversy . Gosh, this whole thing that happened really made me , and Mich too , think twice about who we trust and believe , especially guys . never did we expect to meet someone that cunning , manipulative , hypocritical . and this has distracted us greatly from our wonderful study plans . but its okay, cause we gonna go through this together and not let this dramarama incident affect us ! we're gonna concentrate on our studies and be best friends with it for the next 2 months ! and at the end of this whole incident , we've really became smarter and not as gullible before . that will teach guys not to mess with barbie doll and polly princess HAHAH , anyway guys are jerks . be sceptical of all of them . thats what we learnt .

ARGH ! I LOST MY DARLING GLAMOROUS ENGAGEMENT RING IN CHURCH TODAY ! OMG ITS MY MOST FAVOURITE RING I HAVE EVER HAD AND I'M REALLY DISTRESSED NOW , AND I CAN NEVER BUY IT AGAIN BEACUSE THEY ARE ALL SOLD OUT FOREVER !

i have no idea where is it ! i remember going to the toilet with adrina during service and i think i might have absent mindedly threw it in the bin , but how can it be ? i'm not so dumb ! but, its possible . SIGH , MY RING ! ohwells .

hahahahahha anyway after service , sha, adrina and i , oh and plus adrina's new bf and his friend , trained down to raffles city for some spreeing action ! gosh it was LOVE. and it seriously took my mind off certain things that i SAW today in church. argh PISS ME OFF ! i'm so angry okay ! but never mind , after ranting about all the bad and gross points , i feel MUCH MUCH better! hahahahahh! take that man , you loser! i'm going to make you see how much you're losing out hahahha , serve you right man, you deserve it ! humph .

yup and before service , went shopping with tiffany at vivo (: i'm still thinking about that purple and silver striped jumper from pull and bear . sigh, i really think i should get it soon ! anyway it was fun , talk loads about many stuffs ! then went for lunch at superdog and off to church .

and yesterday too , went for this cd releasing performance at st james with tiff sherrie and rachel . took loads of pics (: then after that had dinner at vivo and yewjin came along too . ate so much ! hahha then walked around more and saw some really nice clothes which was why me and tiff went back again today ! gosh yesterday really was funny ! and tiffy's so lucky la ! hahah (:

oh great back to school tomorrow . and chinese O's results tomorrow too ! I'M SO SCARED ! God , i really pray that i'll at least get a C5 ! please please i hope and pray or else i really think my whole day will be ruined already ! (: haha okay then i have like more important things to do now so yeah i'm gonna do them . okay whatever that sounded dumb . anyway, goodbye world !

yesterday!

i'm sunburnt! argh i hate it cos it itches all over , but oh wells we were too lazy to put sunblock so it was definitely our fault! yesyes , one of the top ten beauty sins . hahah , anyway sentosa was fun ! lying on the beach with music and magazines and chips ! and freshly painted yellow and orange nails (: FUUNN . then after that headed to vivo for awhile, and we went to warehouse. hahahah love that shop , and only two of us will know why ! after that went to parkway and collected my retainers ! i dont like the feeling of wearing it , but thankfully it was not painful at all .

went back home and prepared for the night out (: hahahha back to sentosa again , for krunk2 !
it was enjoyable in some ways, but could've been much better man ! yeahhh , dance dance dance all night on the sand ! can't wait for more of all these after o's ! and, i dont feel bad at all for having fun , BECAUSE i studied before i went ! hahahha .

nothing much today though, but mugging session with mich tmr before bio tuition . and saturday with the appointment and the gig thing , then church on sunday (:

okay, i didn't go to school today . went to the docs and then planned to study the whole day. i have to , i'm getting really worried , its only about 2 and a 1/2 months more . and i can't stand it that once i've studied something , i forget it so quickly ! i don't know why too, that i've been feeling kinda down these few days, like exams exams and all, its like i've no mood to be hyper and cheerful anymore . sigh oh well , anyway FOP on saturday was great! really felt the presence of God , and worshipped Him like never before , its been such a long time since i worshipped him in this way, so it felt real great . (:

then on sunday, was the usual church day. i really have no mood for anything, no mood for being happy, or exercising or doing crazy things. everything seems so dull now , and i dont know why yesterday i suddenly missed him again. and it brought my mood down further. i just can't wait for all this to be over.

burger king with adrina after service!

YAY NO MORE BRACE-FACE !
went to see the dentist on wednesday and now they’re gone ! one year and eight months . wow that’s how time passes so quickly. the whole process of taking out was more uncomfortable rather than painful, especially the playdoh mould thing they stuffed into my mouth . eeew hahaha . i couldn’t stop smiling to myself yesterday haha , mom says that i don’t look like her daughter anymore! something about me looking so different when i smile . oh wells haha .

ANYWAY i haven’t been updating loads ! okay lets see , well last weekend was really great and meaningful too . Saturday was the Take the City walk thing at the padang . got there like really really early in the morning . and then warmups and all before heading up the stage . haha it was better than i expected , no unglam moments for me , thankfully (: then met up with sha , adrina and the rest . and off we went walking and talking . well here’s a secret : we walked just about three quarters of the journey then we went off to get a cab to Clarke quay . well there was a good reason for that okay , i suppose . hah the place was extremely quiet except for a few people who looked like they were on an amazing race thingy. took quite a few pictures and off we headed to wisma for such a sumptuous and fulfilling breakfast. ordered LOADS of food ! then walked around abit , before heading to raffles city with adrina after sha had to go . ohgosh there at raffles , we SPREED like mad ! warehouse , river island , Robinsons . the train ride home was madness because dear adrina transformed into a crazy woman and took out a bra from my bag for the whole train to see . hahahahha

Sunday was great too . met adrina darling early again and we went to Marina for more shopping and spreeing . went to topshop , and ohoh yes john little ! had such a HUGE , but delicious lunch again, gosh i’ve been eating quite a lot lately , never mind if its not unhealthy food ! after which we went spreeing at jl , it was just damn damn hilarious , with all our 'where's mommy? and i'm gonna ask mommy to buy this for me hur! ' ohmg hahahahahh.
anyway after that we were like really really late so got a cab off to expo and oh the cab ride there felt so surreal , because firstly the cabby got into a minor accident with this motorist so we stopped in the middle of the highway while he went to resolve the argument . then looking at all the stuff , well it was like we were finally snapped back into reality and those feelings we felt , it was really painful , like something being pushed into your heart. it was like we could feel God's heartbreak . so then we prayed , and after service at the altar call it was really good . we prayed together like never before , and after that we felt so much better . gosh i really thank God so so much for this . and we made agreements too , to never ever do this again .
then adrina came over for awhile after service and we tried on all our different clothes and stuff ! hahahh and guess what , we both can fit into Barbie kids size dresses! and the dress is actually NICE okay !

ANYWAY , today was simply such a hilarious day at school . chinese lessons were spent with all of us playing this finger teet-teet game and the goggles up game ! haha and how unfortunate that i had so many embarrassing moments today too . first it was the lakerol wrapper that looked SUPER WRONG , and the national geographic close up shots of really really scary disgusting-looking big RED ANTS! the moment i turned the page i jumped , because it scared me so! and becky caught my reaction , and the rest is just too humiliating to mention!

oh and yay i finally quitted the sec3 class for bio tuition (: (:

yay there's Festival Of Praise tomorrow! gonna be going with classmates , can't wait ! and on sunday too with church darlings!
looks like this weekend is going to be great again :D