its all over . everything is over now . i'm trying hard not to think about it , not to think about anything . but its so hard . i dread it when morning comes , when i wake up , i dread that first thought that comes to my head . its like reality sinking in , and it hurts . oh gosh . i'm in a disarray of emotions , i dont know what to do . i just feel like not doing anything , sitting on a gigantic grass patch on a hill , letting time pass by , thinking and reflecting. but then again , like as if there's time to do all that .



God save me .