just came back from church . so many things happened this weekend . it must be god's will even though now i feel damn down yet happy that i finally realised many things . had a talk with shawnie after service . and yeah actually i kinda feel overwhelmed by everything . i feel lost even though i know that there's hope . caught in the middle on what i should do . feel afraid about th obstacles that are going to come my way , i feel scared that i cant handle it . even though i know god will help me through . so many issues like my about me growing spiritually and all . but today shawn told me that god gave me the gift of prophecy? or that i'm a prophetess . something like that . my conscience , the holy spirit , that voice inside of me thats extremely strong . i used to think everyone had it , maybe everyone does . just that she told me that mine was stronger . she also made me realise that its important to listen to this gift , or else one day it'll just be gone . like that . and i dont want that to happen too . i feel so thankful that i've finally realised about this gift . but still , i have to learn not to ignore it . we also talked about my baptism name . and i found out that meixiu is also getting baptised next month as well ! omg how cool is that (:

anyway yeah before service met up with chrislyn and meixiu to catch up . went to bugis for a socalled lunch . we were all so late . but yeah talked about many things and i miss dance so much ! found out that some weeks they had to take away the floorers cos there were not enough people ! sigh ): oh well but i'm so glad that i have friends like them (:

yesterday was the socalled worst day of my life . even though i did have loads of fun . was supposed to go for congre meeting at tc . but didnt in the end so met up with adrina and we went to marine parade . we were like in 7-11 for so long choosing magazines to bring up to daniel hall to read . omg it was so damn funny ! then sha came and the three of us we hid in the pantry with food and all . then went over to parkway and we printed our photos at some sony ericsson printer there . haha the things we do when we're together (: love them to bits and pieces !
anyway mom found out . again . wth now she want to 'control me and be very strict with me' this sucks man . and now i have to earn back her trust ALL OVER AGAIN ! but yesterday night when we talked it did make me realise that actually it is wrong . oh well . anyway once again i'm so thankful for my friends , especially the ones who've been there for me whenever i need them .

and that girl is so dumb man . she's seriously such a joke . she says it as if she's like so close to him . what.a.showoff. everything seems so similar again . people telling me things that just makes me feel as if it is true .

FRIDAY

went out for supper after bio tuition with cell group! shawnie came to pick me up at parkway and we headed off to siglap starbucks . HAHHAA the memories of that place . and at the exact same table too . then after rachel came to join us . anyway all of us had fun talking loads . but something happened . i should seriously do something about it . if not what kind of impressions am i giving to others ? anyway the sec3 bio class was SUCH a show ! omg i could laugh my head off . that faith girl totally revealed her love for that guy today ! omg okay cos when mr lam was talking about cloning humans , that girl was like 'so can i clone _____ so that i can keep one at home?' she was referring to that guy . omg everyone was like wth HAHAAHHA . hilarious , and she said many many other things as well . omg she's so not paiseh at all la ! omg man its like the funniest thing EVER !