i'm so glad i finally did it today . a relationship like this isn't worth carrying on . even if you were not cheating , i think i would still do the same . you tell me to trust you and so i did . but still its so hard bcos you just dont know how to treat a girl . you dont know how to make her feel loved , feel secure , feel like she means the world to you . just like a leopard that never changes its spots , so doesnt a cheat and a flirt . i may be disappointed now , even a little hurt . but i'll get over it . i cant tolerate the thought of sharing the person you love with someone else , esp when its true . i guess you probably don't treasure relationships since its not the first time . but i give up already . i am upset with you but i don't hate you , neither do i love you anymore . its not that i don't want to , but i just can't . maybe after all , you don't really feel the same way about me , maybe it was just an infatuation but then again , i don't want to carry any false hopes already .

seriously man i really pity the other her . i can tell that she trusts and loves you with all her heart and yet you still did that. i have no idea why i'm symphatising with her and not myself . but please get this clear , we're both girls and our hearts are vulnerable . i hope you never ever do this to any girl in future , we dont deserve this kinda shit .

Katherine Mcphee-Over It

I'm over your lies
And I'm over your games
I'm over you asking me
When you know
I'm not OK

You call me at night
And I pick up the phone
And though you be tellin' me
I know
You're not alone

Oh
And that's why
Your eyes
I'm over it
Your smile
I'm over it
Realized
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over

Wanting you
To be wanting me
No that ain't no way to be
How I feel
Read my lips
Because I'm so over
I'm so
Moving on
And it's my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first
A little bit
And now I'm so over
I'm so over it

I'm over your hands
And I'm over your mouth
Tryin' to drag me down
And fill me with self doubt

Oh
And that's why
Your world
I'm over it
So sure
I'm over it
I'm not your girl
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over

Don't call
Don't come by
Ain't no use
Don't ask me why
You'll never change
There'll be no more
Cryin' in the rain

I'm so over it
Wanting you
To be wanting me
No that ain't no way to be
How I feel
Read my lips
Because I'm so over
I'm so
Moving on
And it's my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first
A little bit
And now I'm so over
So over it


for the first time since long ago , i truly felt happy just worshipping God in church today . i felt his assurance and i'm so glad that He'll be here for me . my relationship with God is the most important in my life right now .

and i really thank God too for all my wonderful friends who've been there for me all the way and supporting me , asking me such thought-provoking questions and waking me up from that world of confusion. and girlfriends are definitely more important than one guy . so yeah i love all of you loads! (: