went lunching at katong with mich and lianne just now . we forgot where was 5star and some boon whatever chicken rice shop so we ate somewhere else . then we ate icecream ! those guilty pleasures (: but it was like gelato so its not that bad . katong has nice food so therefore wednesday shall be our fatfat day where we eat nice food (: HAHA anyways pictures !

OHOH AND I ADDED NEW PICS FOR MY PREVIOUS POSTS ALREADY !

THURSDAY had chinese orals after school but who cares bout that cos its over . today was especially memorable (: because of (: yeah i love you (:

FRIDAY WAS SUCH A LONG DAY ! after drama had a 3hour bio tuition ): we were practically dead after it !

SATURDAY met michelle and we went to bugis . there we bumped into nicole and glenda like 3 times ! haha then went to this shop and i finally saw the bag i want . the size is exactly what i want and can use it for school too (: so we're coming back again to get it next week . we were supposed to go back home earlier to exercise before dinner BUT we ended up staying longer and shopped . thats just so us ! so our exercise plan starts officially on monday .
went to one fullerton to have such a sumptuous dinner with my family cos dad's back . we went to this lebanese restaurant . it was so cool ! like arabian nights kinda ambience . and lebanese food is good (: then halfway through dinner there was this performance ! there was this man playing the drums dressed in some arabic costume and a belly dancer . and she was like dancing around the tables with all the men ogling at her , well maybe for the exception of my dad . HAHA but she had a damn good body and i was so jealous ! but i wanna try learning belly dancing , it'll be fun and i can achieve my perfect figure ((:

she's on the table!
trying to teach mom to play the drums HAH

TODAY
what a wonderful time i had this morning ! i'm so happy (: thanks darling ! went to church after that and adrina finally came after all those weeks and we had fun talking about stuff and all ! tuition was cancelled so yay then i rushed off to meet nicole and linette and tampines to catch music and lyrics (: its so sweet and way back into love is stuck in my head . two movies in a day ! blood and chocolate and this ! so now i'm home with a pile of homework for me to do . weekends are the best but they end super fast . sigh but at least this weekend was definitely one of the nicest i had (:

i didnt go to school today (: cos i'm sick HAHA no history test and chinese orals for me today ! anyway i've kinda noticed something in school over the past few days . and yesterday i had a good talk with my dear partner bout it ! and we're both quite alike about it , as in the situation . i mean we were talking about it and i realised that some people just are not aware of their surrounddings at all ! they dont spare a thought about other's feelings and only think of their own selfish selves . i'm not trying to complain or like whine the hell out about it , but its true , and i'm just putting it bluntly .

i've already like tolerated it for so long and yet people dont change . i've tried forgiving but yet the same thing happens again and again . i feel hurt that they dont even realise what they're doing , but then again its not really their fault that they dont know what they're doing to make others feel left out and unimportant . but maybe they're not making an effort to be aware of their surrounddings and people's feelings or maybe they just know and are plain insensitive . i dont even know what to do now and like how to handle the situation , i know i shouldnt bear grudges but everytime it happens again , i'm reminded by what happened the last time and the feeling comes up all over again . i need GOD to help me with this . argh its driving me nuts already and i cant stand it anymore !

i just dont understand why that at least i try my best to make others feel welcome and not leave them out but yet others dont do the same , its so unfair . maybe God's trying to tell me something or let me learn something from this but still , its just so difficult ): oh wells at least i feel sorta better after pouring everything out .

DANCERS (: on G12 sunday

PICTURES TAKEN OVER THE LAST FEW DAYS (:

CHRISLYN . VAN (:

NYDC (:

BESTIES <3

DANCERS !

our last time dancing together .. until months later

high tea at the soup spoon (:

i'm like at home now cos like i left halfway through g12 . and also cos SOMEONE didnt come and didnt even tell me ! but yeah besides i've got lots of stuff to do at home and its freakin cold inside there . omg okay so many things like happened ever since tuesday ! oh and in the end tuesday night was the fun-nest night of my life (: girls night out ! i cant wait to do it again ! oh and on thursday went to the dentist together with sha in the morning and after dinner with chrislyn . was supposed to watch stomp the yard but i didnt and then i was late again , so they left and i didnt get to meet ): oh wells anyway we went to suntec's NYDC and talked and caught up with each other . its so sad that we gotta stop dance after g12 ! but at least we still got other plans with each other (: then went for the conference together and met sha . the both of us had no seats at all so we just sat at like way back up the hall . but then we spent most of the time talking and stuff . anyhows its so fun now that the both of us have so much stuff to update each other on ! oh yeah cos like halfway through we went out to walk around for a while when we bumped into MDM SIM and her daughter ! OMG i think she was going for the metro sale but then its so shocking ! and somemore she was so nice to us ! HAHA and yes her daughter is half indian and looks quite like her !

she's about to extract her tooth !

oh yeah thursday night (: HAHA 16 march (:

FRIDAY . the three of us didnt go for drama in the morning in the end . it was expected anyway ! went for the conference in the afternoon . then left for bio tuition at parkway . during it , mr lam accidently saw the drawing of him in mich's book ! omg embarrassing man , HAHA but he just laughed (: then rushed down back to expo again .

'mr lam is a sweet little cute man'

anyway i'm dancing later ! love our costumes its like white with gold stripes . gonna meet meixiu and chrislyn soon to do our hair and all ! i cant wait (: we're gonna be very glittery and stuff . and its sorta the last time i'll be dancing until like MONTHS later . so gotta make the most out of it (:
and like the hols are ENDING already . its too fast this is so unfair . but at least, you know (:

yay i just changed my blogskin . the old one was weird like it had some problem with the pic . anyways i'm not at school today ! HAHA . so much has happened over these few days (: things not supposed to be said HERE though . so yeah i've been thinkin about my decision . i'm still unsure . so i guess i'll just wait and see what happens , and let god decide . but then again , i really really want to ! in such a dilemma now . at least its coming , soon .

had my CHEM SPA yesterday . luckily this time it was so much easier . and i didnt really do a major screw up . though my jars and beakers almost toppled over . thank god it didnt man . i'm gonna be busy, busy this week . my march hols will be gone just like that ! oh wells at least i'll still be having fun (:

yay i just talked to mom . and she told me she bought things for me in hongkong/shenzhen . and i'll be getting new curtains for my room too ! they'll be sheer blue ! i wanna go back there and shop again haha . oh yeah , and i still wanna get that pink adidas watch . they dont have it anymore over there ):

YAY went SHOPPING today with mich and lianne around town . went to search for THE clothes (: and i finally bought my black skinny jeans ! and like we shopped and all . i didnt spend much money though cos i couldnt find nice things to buy . ohh wells . anyway we followed mich to browhaus at paragon . i think its really good there . shall go next time to do my brows . the shops arent really having a sale ):
anyways . i have stupid school on monday and tuesday . and its a full day ! our school has seriously like nothing better to do ! they are so mean to us ): anyway went for dance on thursday . and met chrislyn to go together . and we were like talking about old times and shopping trips . so we've decided to go shopping together again this thurs before g12 (:

nothing much though . mom just told me she bought me an ADIDAS sneakers in hongkong ! OMG yay ! i can wear it for dancing at g12 (: anyways church tmr and all . i really needa go choose my clothes now or else i'll be late for tmr . much love world (:

i danced for service today (: actually other than that , i cant really remember what happened already .

AS I WAS SAYING , THURSDAY WAS LIKE A HALF DAY , BUT I WENT TO SCHOOL IN THE END .


as after i was going out with nicole and linette. the three of us (: finally after such a long time . went to catch dreamgirls at the cathay . and the cinema was practically EMPTY ! then we were saying we should've caught a thriller or someth instead , then we can scream like nobody's business at the scary parts HAHA . anyway after the movie we lunched at carls jr . i dont like the chairs there . cos the last time , the moment i got up from my seat , my chair totally fell backwards and crashed to the ground !it was so loud and i was so embarrassed ! but anyway on that day two other chairs fell too . it definitely MUST be carls jr , NOT us ! then went on to raffles city to search for a new wallet . saw one at accessorize but didnt know if i should get it . but now i think i should , cos i've fallen in love with it already (:


then went to ROXY . and saw the funniest thing on earth ! lin pointed out this pink bimbo handbag that had the words 'POXY' stiched on it ! OMG HAHAHAHA ! they didnt stitch the end of the 'R' ! i should have taken a pic of it ! HAHA its the retardedest thing . anyway couldnt find a nice wallet ): and its seriously overpriced !





OKAY OKAY , then went to citylink and bought this pretty striped blue top from surfer girl at a steal (: then went to NUM ((: to search for a new bag . saw quite a few nice ones and in the end nic and lin both got attracted to them too ! and we kept asking the poor guy to take down the bags and show them to us again and again . but then after a looong half an hour at the shop deciding on what colour we want , and planning on how the 3 of us are gonna save up for the bag . we finally decided and even took pics of it too ! i want the yellow-gold one , lin wants the purple and nic the lime green one . it cost like 149 bucks ! but who cares i still want it (: but then the roxy bag i like is much bigger and only 80bucks . so i really dont know . but anyhows num is still nicer ! after walking out i felt so happy as if i already bought the bag ! but yeah right . we're planning to come back on 1st april . one month from now ! then trained home together . and had super interesting convos that can ALWAYS be heard by other people on the train as usual !


got home and rushed for dance at BM . met meixiu and and waited for dance to start . i'm gonna serve tmr ! YAY FINALLY AFTER SUCH A LONG TIME ! but chrislyn and meixiu wont be serving with me . . oh wells there's still G12 ! and i havent practised the songs properly yet . so i'm gonna do it right after this (:

MINE (:

NICOLE'S (:

LINETTE'S

FRIDAY

school as usual . hate fridays ! first its school with PE , argh . then TUTORIALS after school then CCA after that . THEN BIO TUITION AFTER THAT ! but anyway today i was lucky . cos it was physics tutorials so i could go home first and at least wash up before drama . nothing much after school . wanted to escape from DRAMA but too bad the juniors saw us walking out and they dared to call us to come back ! humph . after bio tution it was the usual walking around parkway . tried to find a wallet from rusty . was so freakin tired when i got home .

TODAY

had chinese tuition today with michelle . and you know what ! my teacher gave me a brand new BOBBI BROWN lipgloss ! expensive ! but she keeps saying she doesnt need it and will give us her eye liners and shadows next time round . and its all brand new ! yay haha (: then after tuition went to TM to collect mich's stuff . and on the bus mich was like tellin me about the next time she sees a cute guy she'll poke me . cos we were still arguing about ytd after bio tuition at macs when she told me she saw , but i dont even rmb her saying it at all ! then there were like these two guys who were walking by the roadside . and one of them thought she was pointing to him , so he waved ! HAHAHAA and she waved back ! thats so her , and she told me she's been waving to random people she doesnt know . HAHA . well nothing much after home .

tomorrows like a half day . yayness . still contemplating if i should go. but then , might be going out with nic and lin . anyways i made such an achievement . i gymed and ran 2km on monday (: HAHA i'm supposed to exercise later but its raining . i'm so in the mood for sleeping . SCHOOL was quite FUN i guess . alot of things happened . silly , crazy things . but i'm too lazy to type it all down here . anyway me and sylvie played this really retarded hitting game . HAHA it was hilarious ! and i dont know whats wrong with my brain . i'm forever having slow reactions . humph this is so unfair .
ANYWAY i think i really need to shop again . its distracting me i tell you . i cant concentrate during class or tuition cos i keep daydreaming about my shopping list ! so tmr i am gonna buy it , i dont care .

SHOPPING LIST !
that roxy/NUM bag
a new WALLET
SHORTS
skinny PANTS
CLOTHES, clothes and more clothes !

i think there's more but i cant remember . oh wells . i just realised this week everyone's mostly been talking bout guys . yeah , including me la . and its another crazy test week . with stupid tests every single day argh . but then , i cant wait for the weekend ! HAHAHAHA i think only i know why (:

today (: first had sol in the morning . sha went with me today so after that we quickly rushed to take the bus to get ready for our choir duty (: it was like so cool . at first i was like having so much fun clapping and singing on stage then suddenly during the second song we had to jump alot then suddenly i had this feeling that i'm almost jumping at the edge of the platform where i'm standing . so i was like so scared and i kept thinking i was gonna fall , cos if i do it'll be infront of EVERYONE and cos i'm standing in the FIRST ROW with no one infront of me , i'll probably trip and fall to the ground . as i kept thinking i was gonna fall , i really did man ! omg it was so so embarrassing but at least i didnt fall FLAT on the ground . i just stumbled and tripped a bit . but that was pai say enough . but luckily nothing happened after that . though i kept having the feeling i was standing at the edge cos when you're jumping , you cant see where the platform ends . anyways i cant wait for the video to come up . its at fcbc's website ! and people told me they saw me appear on the screen quite a few times . but then my hair totally looked like a crazy woman cos of the french braids . so i really hope i dont look stupid cos after we got down , i went to the toilet and my hair looked like it had two fishtails sticking out from behind ! it was horrible ): anyhows . it think i would much prefer to dance instead of doing choir again cos of that standing on the edge phobia of mine . or maybe its just my new shoes .

oh well . after service it was nothing much . we did a great job for choir . and just stayed back to eat and all . yeah i really cant wait to dance again . i mean its like the feeling just makes me so happy to be serving God through dance (:

YESTERDAY
had chinese tuition with mich . but before that went to parkway's mphosis cos they were having a sale ! and i bought this pair of black sandles at such a steal ! but so sad most of the shoes were sold out . cos some of them were really pretty i'm telling you . then well , something happen an we were both mad at each other . so i went home in the end and gymed like crazy . then i realised that this shouldnt go on . and i really thank God for helping me through it . like he's really changed me ever since . so now everyth's cleared . and i'm so glad it is . after tuition , lianne came over to mich's as well . and the three of us exercise like never before . HAHA . then went up and blended our version of apple juice . it was such a healthy day for me so far . UNTIL I CAME HOME AND FOUND AN AWFULLY CHOCOLATE CAKE IN MY FRIDGE AND BEN AND JERRY'S ICECREAM . so i couldnt resist and ate it . wow all my efforts were WASTED ! argh . oh wells . i dont care i'm gonna exercise like mad from now onwards . cos i think i gained weight . HAHA so thats my saturday .

my blog seriously needs updating ! okay so i shall start off now .
CHINESE NEW YEAR 2007

yay skipped schoool on friday to go off to malaysia . went to kl first , didnt do much on the first day , but went shopping at klcc on the second day ! suddenly met my hongkong chinldhood friend and his family . couldnt remember at first until mom told me . gosh , its been like 10 years i think ! anyways i just bought a pair of those pink brazillian flipflops and a few other unimportant stuff . i wasnt really happy cos all the shops closed way early and didnt get to buy much stuff. collected angpaos and headed off to malacca the next day . well , the good thing isthat the taoist alter at my grandma's house has finally been removed ! apparently the pastors came to do house clensing and everyth's much better now . my grandma even got baptised recently wow so on man ! however its kinda like weird cos i just go there and stone cos everyone else is like forever playing their dumb playstations and gameboys ! and it feels so awkward to talk to my other cousins again . its just weird la . i had so much fun with them when everyone was much younger AND without those retarded playstations and nitendos ! ohoh yeah , note to self : i will NEVER marry a guy that is obsessed with video games and develops an enormous round pot belly due to it . he can seriously use the time to work out or something rather than play those games ! oh well . went shopping the next day at the new mall and bought shorts and new cargo pants for dance . but then roxy wasnt opened ! so i couldnt get a new wallet ! anyways nothing much .i'm just happy i collected money to spend ((: HAHA

WEDNESDAY (21/2)
ponned school today too . cos was so tired after i came back and didnt feel like going to school . but then i went shopping ! HAHA cos mom had to pick dad up at suntec so i decided to follow her knowing that there's a NOVO there ! i wanted to get that pair of pumps so badly cos its sold out at parkway and the salesperson told me its sold out everywhere too ! humph cheat my feelings cos i saw it at suntec ! and i bought the purple one (: love it . it was on sale too so i'm doubly happy . then went to buy brazillian flipflops again cos it was on sale and was such a steal !

THURSDAY (22/2)
rushed home after tutorials today to get ready for dance and choir rehearsal at tct ! my tribe will be doing choir this weekend ! but went early to meet meixiu to practise dance first. i was gonna be super late cos i forgot my stupid wallet and i realised it only after i reached the station ! argh so i had to walk ALLLL the way back home and forth ! then rushed like a mad woman . but then when i reached tiong bahru and got on the bus . i noticed this girl kept looking at me and telling the girl beside her something . so i was like okay , do i look weird or what ? and the girl beside her was like covering her face as if she was sleeping but then i can see her mouth moving and i was like so weird man ! then suddenly the girl burst out laughing and it turned out it was MEIXIU ! omg ! and the girl beside her was actually her friend la ! and she purposely coverd herself ! humph haha ! gave me such a shock . but it was all funny ! oh wells anyway went to practise LORD OF ALL , the new song we learnt last week . i like the song man ! then just hanged around and went up to the audi till it was time for my rehearsal . sigh i feel quite sad not dancing cos like they say , my heart is still there , and it definitely is ! then we learnt the actions for the songs and all . i'm in the first row , and standing with sha ! cant wait for this sunday too . then i can also wear my purple pumps with my purple polo tee . HAHA ~ yeah it was fun today and after shawnie sent us home .

AT MAGIC BOX !

TODAY
was so so tired this morning i tell you . but dragged myself to school anyways . i seriously didnt look forward to it cos today there's PE and after school tutorial and then drama and then bio tuiion ! argh , but then HAHA I DIDNT GO FOR DRAMA ! cos well i was so tired sticky and dirty after the whole day and pe , and dont know how i ' m gonna last till night ! and besides i stained so had t go home and bathe and change too . so yeah thats why i'm home now (: anyways today was such a crazy day with dumb bio tutorial turned GY lessons and the stupid sylvie who kept hitting my nehs . and now i'm being called nehneh thanks to tessa . anyways yesterday was worse with talk about hairy stuff and all ! omg i think i'm gonna be late again of i dont go off now . LOVES !

this week has been great so far (: well starting from saturday went for the reunion lunch thing at the really nice condo beside parkway . then after that went to meet mich to do some shpping in town . bought this fox racer back and earrings (: after that had chinese tuition at night . and our teacher did a pedicure for us ! HAHA then after we went swimming and sauna-ing later . omg and you know what ? we almost died in the sauna cos we fell asleep and when we rushed out we were feeling totally dizzy and i felt like i was gonna faint ! omg i'm never sleeping in there again ! then on sunday it was SOL and the usual . nothing much though cos nobody really came then . monday had drama again . tuesday had DOUBLE TUITION . 2 hours each , or else i could have made vday presents ! but oh well wednesday was vday (: after school went to plaza sing for a while then back home for tuition . and today left school early to go to jurong island for the learning journey trip . it was fun though . especially when we played scissors , paper , stone on the bouncy benches ! omg it was hilarious ! and we also tried to squeeze as many people in the discovery tunnel . omg felt like i couldnt breathe properly !~HAHA . the bus ride was super long but it was really comfortable so we all had a really nice afternoon nap . took pics too ! but shall upload it another day .

now i'm just waiting to go for dance later ! YAY finally after a very long time ! tmr i'm going to malaysia to celebrate CNY ! yay shopping too (:also found out that sherrie and shush are going there tmr too . maybe we'll see each other ! haha . and my dear partner sylvie is flying off tmr too so the class will be quite empty ! hah okay till then when i'm back with all my shopping bags !

our pedicured nails !

me lin kim and tiff

in the bus

wth . today was such a stupid day . i've been pissed off so many times . especially about the commotion about my broken mirror . so , broken then broken la ! who cares about the bloody superstitious 7 years of bad luck . thats complete shit . so stop freakin trying to convince me its real . and stop bothering so much . its my mirror anyway . but then it seemed like the bad luck was true when my stupid history cher scolded me for talking , which was about the mirror . like hello ?! i wasnt the only one la ! and i am NOT the one always making the noise and trying to overpower YOUR voice . like wth . what a bitch . so sarcastic somemore . she just happen to see me at that moment what ! argh idiot idiot idiot ! and like thats not the only reason why my day is so extremely shitty . but wells anyway . i've decided that i shant be so nice anymore . it never works . trust me , i've experienced it ! nice girls finish last , so why should i be one ? but i mean of cos i'll still be nice , just not that sweet and kind . please , it sickens me . argh i really feel like just screaming my head off . its like the worst day of my life ! and i've thrown away the mirror . lets hope i've thrown away the stupid bad luck too . BUT STILL , i dont believe in it cos i know GOD wont do that to me . its just a freakin stupid superstition . its so dumb , i'll just be dumber if i believe in it . so there , my horrigible day . well just hope that tmr'll be much better .

i ate this darling to cheer myself up . well , it kinda worked i guess .

its been long darling .
time passes so quickly so many things have happened !
anyways . the first cell outing since long long last saturday. we had dinner at fish and co (: yay but before that went to congre meeting and the word encounter thing .
saturday night ! our planned failed ! oh wells lets do it next time sha (:
then on sunday went for sol and all . kerin came to join us again . after service the four hung out again . but not for long though . then um yeah , basically my whole week was like really tiring .
todays only tuesday but i kept falling asleep in class . well oh well . i'm in need for some fun ! anyways . i MUST look forward to this weekend . reunion lunch on sat . getting through the whole week is tough ! especially when you have cca now . cos , oh yeah ! we've gone back to drama since friday. tired tired . we're now involved in the detention skit as stage managers or some sort .
oh and went for santification week on thursday night.
there's photo taking tmr ohno . must look my BEST .
this week . there were a few angry moments on the way . am i being too sensitive . argh but you people come take advantage of my niceness .well you'll so be seeing a different side of me .
then again , thats all for now . hello to the rest of this tiring week .

sha me and susie . at fish and co . its so blur , but then i dont have the rest yet.

my grilled sambal fish (:

yesterday was an early day for me . well not exactly since i woke up late and susie even later . so in the end we were late for our classes so we took a cab there . all the way to bukitmerah ! saw adrina working away too . anyways . i feel so embarrassed . i was late and i didnt know where my class was so i made my grand entrance and again . argh tried to find a chair amidst all the staring and put it BEHIND everyone . cos no space what . humph i felt so blur . i didnt know anyone at all ! aiya but then in the end it was okay cos i moved . at least next week shawnie 'll accompany me (: then after we went to eat lunch together with other tribe mates and took the bus to expo . it was so funny cos we were talking and laughing about some stuffs . crazyyy la .

then after we reached ! and went to service together ! it was different cos some caucasian pastor preached . then like after service we had cell at bk instead . was like talking about our PLANS and all ! then halfway kerin came to join us after her prayer meeting ! andyeah this week's like SANTIFICATION WEEK at tc . omg i still rmb last year's one ! it was so funny and like the three of us adrina kerin and i sitting together and all . ohoh but its like at night . and i've got tuition and stuffs . oh wells we'll see . then we've planned a cell outing on saturday . like finally but then not everyone can make it which is like so sad la ! cos if no one's going , whats the point ! we planned to like go watch a movie or ktv ! HAHA . and then go eat a super nice dinner . like fish and co at parkway . i've been craving for that for ages . then might stayover at shawnie's place and go for sol together the next morning . but like when i think of this WHOLE week ahead of me i feel like crap ): anyways . in the end after cell caught up with rin for a bit . its been so long gosh im getting old .

anyway like today was school . sylvie didnt come so it was so boring ): anyways i'm so angry . cos after tutorials , me mich and lianne were planning to go for drama . we wanted to go to the cca office first to check something out . when suddenly this bitch appeared in front of us and told us that we're kicked out of drama and we dont have to go because of our ' atrocious attendance' ! how rude man . and you should see her expression and her tone . like she's some superior person when she's NOT ! argh . we were all so pissed . they should be honoured we're making an effort . okay whatever la but yeeaahh WHATEVER !so now mom's gonna help us do something about it . so at least we get the points . and please , we go for points , heck the passion !

we go for points , heck the passion !

MY 100TH POST !

its been 5 days . and so many things happened . anyhows . i had the most sumptuous lunch ever with my mom at carnivore brazillian churrascaria in vivo (: i loved it ! the waitors would come over to your seat with a huge chunk of meat on this sword like thingy and slice the meat off with a huge knife to your plate ! and the best part is the meat was so tender and delicious ! mmhm . not your regular tough chewy kind . then wanted to spend my tangs voucher . didnt know whether to get that pink adidas watch . but mom said the white was nicer . i think so too . or sneakers ! i need sneakers . like from adidas or nike ! saw the respect me one and i like it ! but then hongkong's cheaper so mom'll get it for me there (: didnt buy the watch in the end ): but i think i want it ! HAHA . anyways the last few days was homework and all and back to school on friday . then had bio tuition . was early for once ! then dad came back yesterday too . hmmm . lots of things have been happening like tensions and all ! sigh but then . . its like NICOLE AND LINETTE ! ITS OUR LAST YEAR TOGETHER SO LETS LEAVE EVERYTHING BEHIND US AND TREASURE THIS FRIENDSHIP ! ALL THE TEARS AND QUARRELS WE WENT THRU , SO LETS NOT GIVE UP KAYS ! YOU GUYS MEAN SO MUCH TO ME AND SO DOES OUR SPECIAL THREE-SOME FRIENDSHIP !

and also everythings okay between me and sha too . YAY (: I LOVE YOU LOTS AND ALL ! wells . its church day tmr ! and finally everything is FINE AND BACK TO NORMAL . ohno i've got SOL 2 in the morning tmr ! and its ALLLL the way in TCT at 10am ! gosh but anyhows its been such a long time since i went so i'll just go maybe something interesting will happen ! HAHS .

I AM SO BORED ):

i'm still stuck at home now doing nothing when everybody else is at bugis looking for ideas ! ARGH this is so sad ! my fever 's kinda gone cos of the medicine but my throat is still swollen and it hurts . sigh . and i cant enjoy already cos after this camp its probably gonna be back to serious studying in school . BOOO this is really unfair . cos i was looking forward to the shopping mall trip the most ! so irritating so annoying . maybe i can go tmr ? but then maybe its not THAT fun already right . OH WELL . there are a few things i gotta do . which is like to finish my homework and . . plan my schedule i guess . what an absolutely boring day for me ): BORING !

I'M SICK ! SUPERR SICK !

i've got a horrigible high fever and a swollen throat and today until wednesday i'm supposed to be at camp ! and ours is in TP and probably the nicest camp so far and i cant go ): and for tmr we're supposed to go to a shopping mall to search for stuff cos its some entrepeurship camp and i dont think i can go cos the doctor says no and wants me to rest for the next few days cos he says the fever probably will not go away unitl wednesday ! HOW ? why do i have to be sick at the WRONG WRONG time ? then i miss out all the fun and next week when i'm well again its all back to studying like a pig . ARGHH . SO UNFAIR MAN ! anyways . there's so many things that happened this week and stuff ! hmm lets see .
monday - nothing much
tuesday - my first maths tuition . my new tutor is actually a hod of maths in like ST PATS ! and i tell you the way she charges is like 60BUCKS an hour which means its 1DOLLAR A MINUTE ! omg that means its 480dollars a month ! this is the MOST EXPENSIVE TEACHER I'VE EVER HAD . so i better score a1 for both my maths ! but then she's really good cos she teaches like a real teacher , which she is la . and she know mrs cheong too ~! HAHA

wednesday - met shawnie for tea in the afternoon . we went to eat at cafe cartel in TM cos i've got the student card which is registered as SHAWN'S CELL . so its like our cell group card ! HAHA cos we all ate there together last time (: talked to her about what happened last sunday . and yeah felt much better already . it also made me not give up hope on the cell , which is thankfully good (:

thursday - after school went shopping with mom , ever since ages ! HAHA went to bugis and ate at this v8 movie cafe , they were showing take the lead . then went to find my capri pants . and finally got it and another shorts from bum equipment . SALE (: YAY . then decided that i shant go for dance at night cos it was raining real heavily too . then tried to persuade mom again that if i dont go for a month , then i could dance for g12 conference instead ! and she agreed ! YAY i can dance for g12 , together with everyone else ! (:

friday - went for TP'S open house after school today with the whole class . i think TP'S really really nice and so appealing that i feel like just going there instead ! and they gave out so many freebies ! food and all ! but then my stupid bad was killing me ! and my shoulders were aching so badly that i had bag lines on the skin and woke up the neck morning with a shoulder and neck ache ! argh anyways saw a few people i recognised too . then went for bio tution at night . we were late again man ! oh well .

saturday - had CIP in the morning . had to do this flag day thing for some malay orphanage . but then HAHA after we collected the tins , we went to macs and ate a nice breakfast and headed of to tampines to do some collecting before we go and relax . after collecting much , went to orchard to see if we could get more . buyt then after walking for a few minutes we decided to leave cos there were so many other schools doing the same flag day . didnt think we had a chance so we left for bugis . and ALSO saw so many other people doing the same thing as us so we decided to just go back inside the mall and walk around . but manage to get some bugis money though . then after went to eat pastamania for lunch ! mmhm yum . then left the place at 130 ! and we were supposed to be back then ! but oh wells . then tiffy told me she saw our old tution friend ! but too bad argh , i didnt manage to catch him . then after went for chem tuition with lianne . we tried so hard to make them refund us cos we wanted to stop asap cos we totally dont understand anything during the lessons . but it was so unsuccessful so we just went . then after tuition had chinese tuition with mich at home . argh what a long day . but cheena tuition was hilarious manzxz ! then after that i was so tired i fell asleep after dinner and woke up in the middle of the night to find out i had a super high fever .

sunday - didnt go church ! SIGH . was sick sick sick . my fever was so bad that it went up to 40degrees . no kidding . spent the whole day sleeping or either doing nothing . ohh wells .

TODAY IS THE WORST SUNDAY OF MY LIFE.

before everthing i loved sundays . my fav day of the week . or rather bcos it was church day ! the day i would get to see all my fav people and have the most fun of the week . but now everythings changed . everything different . its no longer like that . actually it already wasnt like that for quite a long time . but then cos i was busy with dance and all i never really got to experience what it was really like until today . i knew for very long that my cell grp wasnt in order . only I felt it wasnt . today i went to church ALONE . for the FIRST TIME in my entire life . you know why ? cos all the ones i was close to left and the ones that i'm close to now have drifted apart . then when i see other people waiting for each other at the stations , bus stops etc . i feel like , at least they have someone to wait for . then i would wish that if only it could be like last time again when we would all go to church together . i felt really pathetic . like sooo wth . then its like i have to go into hall 10 all by myself . i mean there's nothing wrong with that but then its SUPPOSED to be like everyone in your cell group meet up then go inside together as a whole big group right ? it was ONCE like that , but not anymore . then when i went inside . so little people was there . as in my cell grp . the rest DIDNT COME or HAVENT COME ! like what is that ! then i started feeling really SHIT . that kind of SHIT feeling . then i saw her and i kept thinking about what she did . and i realised i still feel so so angry with her . to the extent of i feel like i hate her to the core . i still cant believe she actually wanted to do something like that ! it was so so mean . i felt damn pissed and angry . and i kept on thinking WHY is my cell group like that ? why does she have to do that ? why do i have to stop my dance ? why why why . and i couldnt stop tearing during worship . i felt it was so unfair . then when i see other tribes and cells so vibrant and united . and then i look at mine . i feel so dead . some people tell me that we shouldnt compare . but then ISN'T EVERY CELL AND TRIBE SUPPOSED TO BE LIKE THAT ?FUN , VIBRANT , EXCITING , UNITED ? AND INVOLVED IN CHURCH ? that is a role model i'm comparing it to a role model which we are supposed to be like . i'm not trying to say we should be exactly like them . but in similar ways . cos after all , we ARE one whole big family of networks .

so today throughout the service i was extremely down . i even wished for the pastor to hurry up and finish so that we can all go home . but then , today pastor eugene said that we should never quit . but i've endured it for so long i feel like quitting . i felt like , i dont ever wanna go church . or rather , go to church with OTHER people . i dreaded the time after service . cos i didnt wanna see her face or even talk to her . i didnt know how i was gonna handle it . but then it came . and then everyone gathered outside in hall 9 . i felt quite stupid just standing there doing nothing . actually it was okay until i heard that person's voice talking and talking non stop . i felt so freaking pissed with her again . after SO LONG . I DIDNT KNOW YOU WERE STILL SUCH A HYPOCRITE . AFTER ALL THE TIMES WE WENT THROUGH AND YOU'RE STILL LIKE THAT . YOU SAY WHY AM I ALWAYS LIKE THAT ? THE FACT IS I'M LIKE THAT TOWARDS YOU . AND YOU ARE ALWAYS THE CAUSE OF ME BEING SO FREAKING UNHAPPY . then i seriously couldnt take it anymore i felt like i was gonna burst of anger so i told my leader i wanted to leave NOW . cos i know i wont be able to take what was going to happen later on . so i went to wait for my mom at the taxi stand . and shawnie accompanied me . at least she tried to make me happy and take my mind of things .

but when i went into the car , it was no better . mom asked me why i didnt go for cell today . so i told her i didnt feel like and i was pissed . then i started telling her how i had to go church alone and how my cell grp is . then i ahvent even finsh saying and she started telling me how i should be a warrior of light and all . hello ? i dont wanna hear all these now ! here i am telling you about my problems and so fast you wanna tell me how i sould overcome it and how i shouldnt compare my cell grp ? you dont even know the real reason or the circumstances i'm going thru yet la ! then we were arguing and she kept on talking and talking and talking that i felt i was gonna burst so i broke down again . i know she means well of me but then let me talk first la ! then she asked me to tell her what happened again and of cos by then i wouldnt feel like talking or saying anything . i just wanted to be LEFT ALONE but she kept on pressing me . argh . it was really the worst sunday i tell you . i dont feel like talking about this wonderful subject ever again . what i've said here is quite vague . and you dont know other things that happen or the real circumstances so dont tell me i'm wrong or conclude anything . i have NO MOOD TO HEAR ALL THAT . i dont have a mood for anything ever again . next week i'll be dancing . the VERY LAST TIME UNTIL AFTER O'S ! at least it wont be so bad . i hope next sunday will be better , a good and memorable one . until after 10 LONG MONTHS . but i've also realised something . shawnie told me as i'm stopping dance for 10 whole months bcos of O'S . let me make very good use of these 10 months and do well for my O's so that my SACRIFICE of dance will be to GOOD USE ! so yeah i'm gonna work hard and make sure that i do well . anyway nothing will change that today is the worst sunday of my life .

updates updates ! (: this whole week has been like so so tiring la ! everyday after school its like either tuition , tuition , lots of homework and sleep and all . argh and now finally its friday night ! anyways yesterday was more FUN ! cos i've been craving to go TOWN and shop for like sooo long and finally on thursday we went ! me kim and tiff . to search for kim's dress . so like just walked around taka and then all . went to wisma's daniel yam . gosh the dresses there are PRETTY ! cant wait for grad night and dress shopping ! but then i think i should be tailoring . together with nic and lin . so that we can have dresses with simliar designs ! (: then the most embarrassing thing happened to me ! bcos i was already LATE to go home , i quickly left first . so i was on the escalator about to leave when i decided not to waste any more time and climb as fast as i can up the escalator . then SUDDENLY when i was about to reach the top , MY WHOLE SHOE CAME OFF and it was stuck at the escalator ! i was like shit oh no and for a moment i totally freezed there deciding what i should do . i was decided whether i should pick my shoe up and wear it or just slip my feet into my shoe . and then there were like people behind me STARING at me ! it was so so embarrassing and then the lady behind me was like 'careful girl , careful' so in the end i quickly PICKED my shoe up ,put in on the ground and wore it !omgggg how embarrasssing was that ! i was so freakin paiseh la ! argh . gosh WHY AM I ALWAYS DOING THIS ? vanessa vanessa there is something wrong with you . and then i dashed out of wisma .

anyways later at night went for dance (: at tct . today we had an ultra long sharing session and an ultra super tiring warm up exercise too . but then at least i'm sure all of us became much more flexible . then yeah nothing much today . actually i wanted to stop dance after g12 conference which is in the march hols but then NOW . i cant ! i have to stop like asap la . all cos of olevels . humph . i dont wanna talk about it anymore . had enough of it while talking to dad on the webcam . i dont ever wanna talk about it so dont come and talk to me about my dance anymore ! i will just be dancing ONE LAST TIME until . . o's are done . 10WHOLE MONTHS (: how wonderful man . YEAH RIGHT ! argh . whatever LA !

anyway today at school was such a LONGLONG day ! had phototaking today ! our LAST SHOT MAN . when i was in sec1 i would look at the sec4s coloured photos and think how i cant imagine myself being there . NOW I'M ALREADY SEC4 ! AND I CANT ACCEPT IT YET . IT IS ALL TOO FAST . OH WAIT ACTUALLY I CAN ACCEPT IT . i just cant accept the stupid O'S . then after school had an IMMENSELY 2 and a half hour LONG workshop by that marife person . i was so sleepy i so felt like sleeping and some more the wonderful aircon made it nicer to sleep . FINALLY IT WAS OVER ! and then the moment i walked out of school it became from drizzling to POURING ! argh whats the probelm with the WEIRD weather ! then went to meet mich at the bus stop and when back home to get ready and eat for bio tuition . we were LATE ! AGAIN ! and not much better from our last record of 30mins late ! and cos we were standing outside the room . mr lam saw us and announced so loudly 'AIYO ! THERE ARE FINALLY HERE ! ' then when we went in the class was FULL ! ALL THE SEATS WERE TAKEN AND WE HAD NO WHERE TO SIT ! so we had to bring thses odd lecture chairs in . cos we were having so much difficulty carrying the chairs , our grand arrival was the greatest disruption of all . then in the end , some guy helped us to carry desks from the other class . then we must put back the chairs , take new chairs , arrange the tables . gosh it was the biggest commotion ever . and we are so NOT proud of it . then after class , remember that irritating indian prata guy ? he kept on suaning the guy who helped us with our desks and chairs saying that he could become social worker next time . but then he was just being gentlemanly . isnt that what a guy's supposed to do ? then that prata still sitting RIGHT UP INFRONT AT THE AISLE , dont even wanna get up and help us . and the guy who helped us , he was sitting ALL THE WAY BEHIND . and had to JUMP , SERIOUSLY JUMP , over his desk to get out and help us . cos there was just NO SPACE ! argh i still cant believe that prata . SO IRRITATING MAN !

after tuition we just walked ard parkway again and took a bus home in the pouring rain . we slept on the bus and nearly missed our stop ! we were just so absentminded today . plus a few other stuff that happened too . then finally reached home WET . and the school week has officially ENDED ! hello weekend ! its SO TIME TO SLEEP IN AND RELAX . like FINALLY FINALLY . yay (:

today is church day ! (: my fav day of the week cos i get to see my fav people and be at my all time fav place ! HAHAS . early in the morning before church met adrina at tanah merah and we went off to bugis in search for a present . but then we couldnt find it . just walked around bugis street and stuff . and then soon we headed off to raffles city ! love that place and the high class basement ! then we went to chippy and bought food . we were planning to bring them to the soup spoon (: bu then the people making our chicken and calamari rings were SOOOOOO SLOW ! by the time we ate at soup spoon was like 1245 ! ARGH we were so angry . but while waiting took quite a few pics and the fountain there ! then went to soup spoon and ordered the delish minestrone soup ! and made a total mess on the table hahah ! cos we were rushing for time what ! oops . then went to STARBUCKS and bought the caramel frapp cos we fell in love with it when they gave out free samples earlier on (: then rushed to the mrt . stopped at eunos to take a cab to expo cos we were LAATE ! ! then i was so broke ! i feel so guilty cos i used up all my tithes ! so next week i'm gonna give extra , luckily we werent that late yeah . also found out some things from adrina . sigh now i dont know how to trust that person . looks like she's still the same . i mean how hurtful can she be ?! she doesnt even appreciate things at all ! today was lord's supper . then today i really really felt like just getting back at that person. but then i remembered that we have to forgive . though it was really really hard . cos of all the hurt . i tried . i kinda managed to . forgiveness shows thru our actions . it was hard but i tried . though not very successfully . never mind i will learn soon .

after service . me and adrina did someth really crazy . actually she did ! HAHAH shant say what it is . but it was so so funny ! the whole group of them went 'waaahh !' so loudly when they saw what it was ! HAHA . then she left and we went to have cell group . celebrated susie and shawnie's bday today . i think cell was quite good today . shared stuff . lots of things to look forward to in february ! including choir again ! YAY YAY ! fnially get to do choir ! anyways i'm so sad cos my dad wants me to step down from dance asap . then only after o's can continue ! i was heartbroken when i heard it . i mean dance makes my day ! its like my strength and passion and happiness ! ohh wells . i'll see what i can do . at least dance one last time for service right . . initially i was thinkin after g12 conference then i shall stop but then now ! sigh this is so so sad . anyways i'm so happy today ! cos GOD answered my prayer ! HAHA about SOMETHING ! shant say what but then its not enough ! i want more ((: HAHA . oh well then tumpanged a cab ride from shawnie home . thats it then . hope next sunday will be better and happier too . and that i will be able to get through this whole week of 5 WHOLE days of school ! sigh . ARGH . GOD HELP ME ! thanks ((: oh and dad left back for shenzhen already . sigh i feel so sad for him cos it'll be freezing there ~ and i'll miss my dad too ! this is like the first time man ! but after everything that has happened last week . i feel closer to my parents now i guess . okay (: a brand new week ! MUST BE POSITIVE cos i KNOW its gonna be a good week with GOD'S HELP AND FAVOUR ! (: yayness HAHA

hello hello (: these past two days has been tuition tuition ): friday had the first bio tuition of the year ! after school mich came over for lunch . then we planned to study bio . but then cos we were so tired we fell asleep and slept for like 3hours ! then we got a shock when we woke up cos it was damn late already ! so then rushed over . got bathed and all and reached parkway at 730 ! half an hour late man ! and she couldnt rmb what floor was it on again ! HAHA . luckily we were not the LATE-EST ones . today the class was PACKED ! so many new faces . but anyways as usual mr lam was being ever so comical and always making everyone laugh . the best teacher so far . so i'm counting on a1 for bio ! omg what a target . but then . miracles do happen .

after tution walked ard parkway . saw new shops ! and saw this really nice tote bag from i-cant-rmb-what-shop . the FLUFF brand . there's this one that has shoes all over it , very cute . i'm attracted to the one with the hula girl ! its so island-ish (: oh wells i just love unique things . then after that went to mich's house for dinner and went home .

TODAY had my first chemistry tuition at eastpoint with lianne . it was like okay okay . but then i dont like the way we sit ! its so weird . the chairs are like those in the lecture room with small mini tables . and we have to take off our shoes to go into the room ! weird ! i rather desks man ! but then comparing mr lam to the chem teacher i so prefer mr lam ! oh wells . i want/need a private chem tutor ! then its much more better . cos today i just didnt know what was he talking exactly about . then after tuition walked ard for awhile and i finally found studio wu ! tucked away in some ulu corner of the third floor . i wanna go there and learn dance dance dance ! wells thats all for saturday (:

today was the second day of school . and i tried the brown hairspray but it only made my fringe browner . haiya i 'm so sick of it already . was so so sleepy today okay ! oh took height and weight . and i think i really gotta lose weight . at least 1 more kg . before i'm happy woth my perfect weight haha . its the holidays fault . and you know what ? i'm still eating chocolates ! so much for dieting . anyways . after school . had our first chinese tution together with mich . it was so hilarious cos we were both kinda falling asleep at some parts so then when we saw each other's faces we burst out laughing . and at one time we couldnt stop ! HAHAH . anyways our teacher is kinda weird . like she's so hyper at the last part then she kept snapping her fingers at us and exclaiming 'thats the point ! ' and we were like erm . . okayy . then when we said bye to her she was like BYEEEEE ! then when we closed the door we totally burst out laughing our heads of ! cos she was just so comical . haha my goodness . but then its kinda okay . then after that we actually SLEPT for one hour ! was feeling so shack man . anyways still got homework and all . so tiring everyday . so i shalll aim to sleep early tonight !

sigh . anyways yesterday in the afternoon i sort of had a spiritual attack . i was halfway packing and clearing my school stuff then my mom came in and i got kinda agitated . so then she started like scolding me and i was like talking back and all . so then its a long story . but there was alot of tears . like i dont know why i suddenly became like a crazy and angry girl . i think its cos like the devil wants to attack me cos recently i've been closer to God. so in the end i've learnt alot from my parents . and i'm glad it actually kinda made us understand each other more and closer . though it was a seriously tiring day man . and maybe cos i felt moody since the next day school reopens and stuff .

well today sigh bad start . i remembered my dad warning me that today i should be early for school cos if i'm late it will be a bad start to the day . and indeed it was true . i was late for school man . how wonderful . cos since my parents have to send my brother to school i took a cab with mich and lianne and we ended up LATE . and we were the only sec4s . how embarrassing . argh . THEN they found out about my highlighted fringe . ARGH . if only i wasnt late then i can get away with it and dont have to go to all the trouble ! then had to wait in rtc for sooo long for that sister rita to finish her whatever business . but in the end . went back to class and it was quite fun . nic lin and i talked about many many things . well not exactly many cos we havent finished our sharing session cos lopez ruined it ): then we exchanged presents HAHA . then recess ! at 1045 everyday ! so the moral of this story is to eat breakfast everyday so that i wont starve to death during lessons .

then we had chinese . so BORING . and my wonderful teacher is that mrs chong ! so now she will so remember me and i cant get away that easily ! arghh . i miss mdm heng cos she doesnt really care anyways ! then had chemistry . i TRIED my best to pay attention . haha but then , nic and i ended up doing a list on our criteria on a guy ! and guess what ? we filled up 1 and a half pages! i think tmr we'll be able to finish the entire 2 pages man ! so yeah our expectations are kinda high i guess ! HAHA . ohh wells . i gotta start focusing tmr !

so after school went to marina with mich and lianne cos needed to buy some stuff and get my hair dye . so just walked around and stuff . didnt wanna buy hair dye so bought brown hair spray instead. thenn , yeah was on the way home when it started to rain so went to eastpoint for shelter . tried to find studio wu ! but i cant find it ! oh wells . then went to check out the tuition . then suddenly we were so interested in it . from being so into shopping suddenly we were so into tuition and studies haha . but its good la . oh and hmm nothing else then . so tired .

TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF THE HOLIDAYS ):

inside me i'm feeling a little nostalgic , kinda down and yet . i dont know . just been thinking about this whole year . the good and the bad times . anyways talked to sha last night after a very long time . i realised alot of things . somehow i've also come to understand why God put me through so many things this year . all those bad things that happened to me . like my mom finding out stuff and all the quarrels . in the end . it made me closer to GOD and my life's much more in order now . i feel whatever i've went thru she's going thru . so its not merely a coincidence . it happened for a reason . and now i know he's gonna use me mightily . and even as the theme for this year is a year of victory , i can really begin to see already that GOD'S beginning to do his work inside some of us . oh and we talked about how we feel that our cell and tribe or even network should seriously be more involved in church . like you know take part in activities . organise tribe camps and all . join ministries . not just come to church . okay then go home . i mean when i see and hear that other tribes are so united and everyone knows everybody from different tribes from their own network i feel like wah so good ! and its like . for us . its so nuahh . i dont even know anyone that well from my own network outside my tribe ! and you see . the result is . some of us are NOT EVEN GROWING ! cos its bcos of the environment we are in ! its seriously so dead la ! but anyways i shall stop complaining and do something about it . so next week for cell . we're gonna share what we think and what should be done ! and something really should be DONE !

i'm gonna so miss everything ! and when school starts my days are going to be superly packed ! bcos . firstly . there are 7 days in a week . tuesday for chinese tuition with huibo . wednesday for ANOTHER chinese tuition with mich . one day for maths tuition . one day for piano . saturday for chem tution . friday for bio tution ! thursday for dance at night (: oh this one i dont mind (: then prob going to studio wu too . and sunday for church (: i dont mind too (: wow so wonderful man . argh . anyways cca ? i'm giving up on that one already . cos i dont think i have time for it . so i'm just gonna focus on studying super hard . cos NO CCA POINTS TO HELP ME ): but nevermind . its possible . so i dont have to worry about spending HOURS preparing for syf . HAHA anyways honestly my cca is a waste of time . i TRIED going many times before but then , in the end it was a total waste of time so now i'm taking no chances !

I HAVENT FINISHED MY HOMEWORK ! HOW HOW HOW . ? !

i'm feeling freakin shitty now . cos i've just remembered idiot school and homework . wth . i cant stand it . ARGH. whatsoever . let me be reminded about how wonderful my last day of 2006 was .

today for service was doing some promoting thing for the new year countdown with chrislyn . supposed to dress retro . so met at the station and was on our way to church . we were talking about how fast this day was surely gonna end and like dont want it to end so fast cos we're gonna miss 2006 and this day so so much . and then whoosh yesterday has come and passed . everything just happpened in a flash . it was all just too fast . sigh . oh wells . anyway went to expo then walked around giving out tickets and all . then for after that during service they like introduced the promos and we had to walk out at the front of the stage and strike some retro pose . or something . anyhows it was fun . its nice being involed in stuff like this (: so then todays message was like good . then at the end . we would all take turns to come out in front and be slained . haha we actually went up two times ! me chrislyn and charis . first ps nina then ps khong ! heh (: today was really spirit filled . then after service we all had to rush and meet up to get changed and our make up done . all in a total rush ! then after had to practise blocking and all again . i tell you time passed so so fast then okay ! but it was fun cos took alot of pics and posing for the cameraman . gosh i will never forget this day . then rehearsed and all . was quite nervous but then thanks to all the encouragement from each other we managed to pull everyth off . then the party started ! at first they were playing all the retro music from the beatles and elvis and we were all dancing and acting crazy to the music with retro moves . sigh i just LOVE the retroness ! it was something like planetshakers with the chairs all removed and all . so then we danced . then went back to the room and all . then it was time for JOYFUL JOYFUL . our celebration team performance item . we were all so nervous but in the end . it was a total blast . my first time dancing on the very expo stage . it was so fun . but then it happened so fast ! it was over already ! WHY MUST IT BE SO FAST ? argh i'm like repeating myself here . but its so true !

well we all did well . oh then my bling bling got caught in my hoop earring while dancing halfway . that thing was quite heavy okay . so you must know how painful it is . then it was time for the new year countdown . but somehow . and then 2007 ! sigh . wonder how the year's gonna be like . honestly i'm afraid . i'm afraid of the obstacles i know i'll face . i feel like running away . but it doenst help anything . 3 things i wanna thank GOD for . 1) for this wonderful opportunity to serve in the dance ministry 2) the many new close friendship ties i've made 3) that GOD has helped me to learn many things many many things and helping me thru the obstacles i've faced .

what i hope for 2007 . 1) good results for O's 2) more opportunities to serve and become a better dancer 3) more new friendships to be made and to have closer friendship bonds 4) to become a better christian and to draw closer to God .

i know i'm afraid of whats gonna happen in school . but then the only way i can overcome this fear is to trust God and let him take charge and know that his FAVOUR is going to be on me . okay yes i know i can do it (:

oh and even though i didnt see my cell group the whole of yesterday . at least my parents came ! i feel so happy that they can finally get a chance to see me serving . especially on stage ! whee . thank GOD . for everthing . ESPECIALLY ESPECIALLY for getting me through the obstacles that i've faced . the many FEARS i've faced . especially in school . he is such a wonderful father . sigh i feel like crying now . the start of the year is always like that . uneasy , worried . but then after a while its okay everythings getting used to . i hope the first few months will pass quickly . then everythign can start to slow down then start to pick up again at the second half of the year esp when its O's . okay must trust God and rely on him . i know its possible . cos i can do all things through christ who strengthens me . gosh i sound so holy now . but i dont care what the world thinks about me . ITS NOT IMPORTANT AT ALL .

i feel so much better after typing everything out . no longer do i feel shitty about school and homework cos i know no matter what , God's gonna help me through everything i do (: praise HIM !

THE COUNTDOWN PARTY !

me and meixiu with pastor (: