today was a mixture of both good and bad events. wells firstly i waited for shawnie to come pick me up at 1230pm at my house toggether with kerin and nicole. so off we went to siglap to eat cafe cartel ! the car ride was so fun and we were laughing all the way ! so then when we reached there , we ordered SUCH a spread ! the pasta set meal, potato wedges, lasagbe , and pork ribs ! nicole was like on cloud 9 since the set meal came with free flow of bread . hahas and she kept suggesting that we ' ta pao ' some bread home ! then everyone was like ' nicole !! " hahas ! we even took a whole loaf of bread and many butters to share among us thanks to dear nicole ! i was having so much trouble cutting the bread up that i didnt realise that i looked like i was murdering the bread! until shawnie said that she never seen me so rough before ! haahs am i really that gentle ?? so anywasy halfway thru eating , sha came to join us after her lunch at tm and yeahh we all had a reallly great time at cafe cartel !

so after lunch , cos kerin wanted to go to far east to get a present for clement ! oooh ! hahas . so we all decided to go there except nicole. so kerin went home to get some money first, but in the end guess wad she got ? 50 bucks ! taken from her mom's wallet when she was half asleep ! oooh lucky girl! so anyways since shawnie had a dinner appointment at orchard later , we all went back to shawnie's house so she could change first. so since sha didnt wanna go home for dinner since her mom was creating this new smashed green vegetable thingy , she wanted to have dinner outside, so kerin also could, but as for me , knowing how bloody unreasonable my mom is i knew long time ago the answer was no. but i still asked anyways and she wanted shawnie to call her. den sha was like going on and on how strict my mom is, and like how i'm already grown up. i mean i already feel so pissed bout my mom and she still has to keep on rubbing it in. so ?? its not like its my fault wad. den since shawnie called mom den mom was like wad is vanessa wearing? den shawnie told me that my mom doesnt like me to wear shorts go orchard. den sha was like ' why? ' in that kind of ' its not a crime ' kinda tone. thta i felt SO uncomfortable and i was starting to get really really pissed. so yeah in the bloody end i coulnt stay for dinner. so all the way in the car i was like keeping quiet lar. but in times like this, all i want is to be left alone for a while and let me cool down. but unfortunately sha kept on asking me questions and cheering me up even when she was actually part of the source of my pissed off-ness. and this is not the first time also. i mean do they even noe how i feel?? at least kerin didnt say anything much wad. do they even noe how i'm struggling with it? cant they just accept it and STOP trying to pressurise me to ask my mum things that i noe are definitely gonna end up as a negative. besides i cant stand the way m mom treats me. its not like i'm some little girl and evrything. she just DOESNT trust me and worst of all, kerin and sha are YOUNGER than me yet they get more trust and freedom. what is this ?? and worst still i'm the oldest child and its always like that whne you are the oldest ! everything just suckslike shit . ARGH !!

so anyways after cooling down when we walked to far east at orchard i was starting to feel better already. so but go shopping also no use. don't even have enough money. but kerin huh. lucky girl. so in the end we just walked around. look here and there . see all the nice stuff. oh yar and shawnie was so nice cos each of us only paid 5 bucks for the cafe cartel meal while shawnie paid the rest and the bill was like almost 50 bucks . so anyways we could den apply for the student privelage card so in the end guess wad name we used for the card ?? shawnie's cell !! so anyways since shawnie was going to bangkok this wed and she was asking us wad we wanna buy and everything ! sigh. how can kerin go when she has SUCH a nice cell leader like shawnie ?? anyways the four of us were seriously so tired that we walked backed to the car park where shawnie parked her car and just sat in her car , listened to music and rested. sigh then we were talking bout all the old fun times we had together , and all the wonderful camps ! and all of us really missed the ohana camp we had at sentosa one day later, two years ago ! wow time really passes so fast ! its actually been two years ! so anyways it was laready time to get up and start moving. shawnie was going to meet her friends while the 3 of us were going home, sha didnt noe whether to go home or hav e dinner outside, cos earlier on when i couldnt go for dinner . she was like ok den i also dun wanna go alr. den i kept on saying that just go just go. cos i felt like i was holding them back but she still keep on insiting. so fine lor its her choice anyways, i didnt force her to do it. so in the end we were all hungry, so went to 7 -11 at somerset there , grabbed a bite and the latest seventeen and we just all decided to go to starbucks for a drink. so we ordered the 2 banana frappucino thingys and shared it. mmhm it was so delish ! so after that i noticed sha's hp on the table and i had a feeling she was going to forget it, knowing her hahs. so i reminded her before she left so i assumed she heard me. but in the end halfway thru walking , she realised her hp was missing ! that girl ar. hahas anywyas she found it back, or else we'd never noe how she'll survive without it. so in the end we just all went home taking the mrt (cab preferred) but no choice cos we were broke. and i really owe kerin man, who paid for our drinks ! so when sha already left, ( she forgot her shoe bag again ! ) hahas , kerin was telling me that she actually attended the chc cell alr and she feels very comfortable there. and even the cell leader is going to come visit kerin tonight at her house for some bible study thingy. sigh even her mom now encourages her to join chc cos she can grow better there. but ultimately its her choice, even after hearing kerin talk bout how she was so touched by the sermon , i realised that she also can grow better there. but still during lunch shawnie said ' no poaching " as in like take our ppl and bring to the other side, i mean i also feel really indignant bout it. ( i dont really noe the meaning of that word, but who cares , i'm using it ! ) i mean how can they do that ? hello? spare a tot for us fcbcians and stop taking our ppl. argh. no offense but i just feel like they 're just.. yeah. hmmm so thats all for this day den ~