Hey today was seriously and extremely eventful day. like so many things happened man!! gosh anyways today was church day so yeah . so I woke up this morning and prepared to get ready and blah blah tihnkin I was supposed to meet adrina at 12plus. But in the end , only after I finished getting ready she called and told me that yeah wells she’s still at home and don was coming to church too. hmmm should have woken up later den. anyways i was quite happy bout my outfit was great today :)) hahas. so guess wad today was the first time that i was late to go to church at expo. so in the end after i met adrina at tanah merah we cheonged down stairs to get a cab. and it was SUCH a long wait can !! anyways we were damn worried that we would get locked out ! so while in the cab i got a call from dear sha saying that she just woke up ! ahahah nvm expected lar. so in the end she couldn’t come for church already. haiz so yeah. so the moment we reached expo we seriously RAN man and quickly met don. but just SO glad and so surprising the gates were still open and people were still streaming in even though it was already 1.40++ thank god !! ((: so when we went into the hall it was totally pitched black except the stage which was like blasting of sounds and coloured lights !! we felt seriously lost ! cos it was like way dark . and i was like wow this really feels like i’m in some concert! and it is the first time i actually noticed how cool and concert-like my youth service was , since i’m usually early most of the time ! so after we found our seats we ran in front for worship again and met susie nicole and shawnie . yay today we sang open up the gates , shepherd and the time has come ! den me and adrina as usual were dancing subtly to the steps as always ! especially shepherd ! gosh i love that song !! yayayayayay anyways next week we’ll be doing that song!! hais den after worship and during service i was trying my super best to just look out for someone , but that person was just nowhere to be found ): hmmm i wonder whether the person came..

so after service we had cell and today we were talking bout taking things for granted . so when we went to sit down at the cafeteria there , i suddenly saw SOMEONE but who cares bout her so i just turned around and faced back to my cell members again. so in the end that girl together with her friends moved to the front where i could see them even if i tried not too so adrina dragged don to go disturb tua liap. HAHAS. but of cos i didn’t go. just watched from the distance. hahs. so anyway that girl was like turning around to look sorta of like beyond me but in my direction. gosh i can like so see it that its on purpose. humph. den all the while she was giving me that super bitchy face that i felt like slapping it. i mean hello?! like whats your problem ?? i didn’t do anything to offend you , so there ! hmm so i tried to not CARE bout her but she keeps looking in my direction and doing that face. like puhlease i cant be the least bothered by your bitchy ways. apparently from what i heard from sha that girl keeps telling tua liap that me kerin and adrina are always ganging up at her , and always staring at her like she’s some sorta freak. i mean hello? we like mind our business. its her that keeps on looking at us that’s why we do it back . as for sha , she doesn’t even noe what that girl looks like so duh ! of cos she doesn’t stare at you. but even if she knew, do you think she’ll actually look at you ? yeah as if you're like what ? a pageant queen ? arghh. so anyways tua liap went to ask sha if there was a cold war going on between my cell and HER cell. i mean hello? we seriously cant be bothered with her. so why doesn’t she just STOP making stupid things up to gain all her kors sympathy and pampering ?? just like that time she claimed that adrina knocked into her. i mean that is SO NOT TRUE !! adrina just pretend-stomp past her. BUT in the first place adrina didn’t even noe that she was beside her !! the reason adrina stomped was to like to pretend-show me, sha and kerin that she’s angry. i mean it has so nothing to do with her in the first place. SO IRRITATING !!! ANYWAYS I CANT BE BOTHERED ALREADY.

yeah so during cell i received a sms from clement saying that ‘ hey kerin wants me to tell you that she has moved to chc and has a new cell there! ‘ so the moment i read the msg i was like ohmygosh ! what ??!! so i quickly grabbed adrina and let her read it. her reaction was the same as well. den we were like KERIN!! DON’T GO! WE’LL MISS YOU! so den i faster showed the mag to shawnie too ! yeahh and she got such a shock too ! actually deep down i feel like sooo sad and just soo down. i mean i just realized how much kerin means to all of us, and to me as well ! i also realized that yeah i've been taking her presence for granted and that’s what today's cell topic was about ! especially the part where ' and she has a new cell there ' really stung me. and i think for shawnie and adrina as well. i mean it just gave me that feeling of 'abandonment' like ' what? you don’t want us anymore??' i mean all along after her parents moved to city harvest , she'd been reassuring us that she had decided to stay with us and her mom gave her a choice to choose, and she chose to stay here. but y suddenly just totally change like that ?? so den shawnie msg kerin and everything and tmr i'll be going with shawnie to meet kerin for lunch. and hopefully she’ll just pls pls change her mind !! but den me and adrina were just thinking , what if sha also goes?? i mean her parents just moved there too !! if sha really goes, omg, i really seriously have no idea what we’re going to do already !

so on the way home with shawnie , she was quite upset about the whole kerin thing. but yeah so am i !! kerin please please don’t go kaes !! we all love you very very much !! so this is it den.