church day (: hahas anyway last night i finally talked to adrina (: everything went fine . thank god . hahas hope she comes for service soon ! we all miss her loads ! ! so yeah today the usual , met meixiu at tanahmerah , went expo , did makeup and hair together and then practised and rehearsed steps and warm ups . today there were only 6 floorers , including me . but i think today was quite special . everything seemed so harmonious and we were all getting along (: so yeah went in to hall 10 . practised a bit . then praise started , sigh the jesus loves me this i know song , not alot of people were very enthu lehh . thurs was more fun . hahas . then came open up the gates . then i was like okay okay i can do it . i will not lose my balance . then suddenly ! i saw my cell people infront , with some other tribe people too ! then i was like , ohnoooo . then they were all like smiling at me . then i felt so awkward and nervous ! ! i mean dont you think its much easier to dance in front of a crowd whom you dont know anyone ? rather than when everyone you know is infront of you and you had to live up to their expectations . yeah lar . than i like made sooo many mistakes and all , it was like so shit man . and i was so upset and angry . shouldnt have told them that i'm dancing today ! then when i'm not , nobody wants to go infront for worship . whatthehell . then the whole time i was so bothered by it that i couldnt even worship the lord properly . spoil my entire day !

so then today for sermon , it was very different . ps khong 's doing a whole new series of sermons about the holy spirit . so today , for alter call , it was for people who not yet received the gift of tongues . so it was extremely wonderful to see the holy spirit at work . it was a very meaningful sunday . i mean for the sermon only . then after everyth ended supposed to go find my cell group argh . i was still pissed man . esp with her and her big mouth . in the end i couldnt focus and do my best for god . so yeah i went to find them feeling extremely pissed . then they acted like nothing wrong like that . so yeah i think they could sense it . then we had cell . i had no mood for it at all man . somemore we had to share stuff . NO MOOD FOR THAT . then it was like my turn . i felt so freakin reluctant . then in the end , i couldnt take it so i burst out asking them why today of all days why they must come infront . then i was like i made so many mistakes lar all cos of them coming infront . then they were like really ? they actually didnt notice any ! okay then luckily . but they said i was good and i improved (: hahas .

then after that we had to share what we wanna do during the hols . so i said i wanna go for dance classes at studio wu . then tiffy said she wanna learn BALLROOM DANCING ! ! hahas . then the rest of them also were quite enthu bout the dancing . and all of them wanted to go too . so maybe we can go for dance classes as a cell group ! ! hahas . then yeah sha and tiffy left . so then shawnie asked me more about how i felt about the todays dance thing . so i said yeah i was quite irritated and shared with her how i felt . i'm glad i have a cell leader like her , at least she understands and even suggests that they dont go all the way right infront of me next time . but of course i gotta overcome this . slowly . i know i can . it just takes time . ohh yeah then also talked bout my studies thing and told her how i felt . and yeah shawnie gave real good advice , i mean its great to have someone who already experience these things then its just like , so much better !

after we went to the food fair at expo ! hahs me and nicole kinda like took every sample at every opportunity . hahahs . hungry what . didnt eat lunch . but then we all felt kinda bad after that ! hahs . so then we went to find shawnie's sisters at the coffee bean near hall 3 there . its upstairs and its super nice the place with full glass windows and carpeted floors . then like all the seats are beside the windows so its super nice ! shall go study there next time ! (: so then shawnie and her sisters were talking about matchmaking stuff and guys in the church . omg hahas its like when i hear them talk and all , i'm just imagining how it'll be like next time in 10 years . like me and my cell mates . like whether we'll be like them talking about stuff . and just how it'll be like . hahs . and predict who gets married first ! cos shawnie told me thats what they did when they were our age . hahs so cool . then went home by bus . reached home quite late today about 7 + . what a long day .

anyways mummy came back ! hahahas she bought lots of stuff from shenzhen . and i tell you its GREAT shopping there with extremely jaw-dropping bargains ! but i shant say more . cos i'm going there to get christmas presents ! !(: i cant stand it lar . everyth is super cheap compared to singapore ! hahs . anyways she bought me pumps , a bag , winter stuff for our holiday , two skirts , accessories . hahas (: so happy . and they all dont cost much too ! cant wait for holiday ~