anyways anyway , i didnt go to school yesterday . my throat was killing me . coughing nonstop and i couldnt talk properly , and also didnt want to pass it on to my dear classmates so when to the doctor's . but yeah i missed out on alot , and i'm real worried . sigh , i'm gonna study very hard everyday i promise . had the scariest lunch with mom yesterday . went to this german place to eat and when i was trying to enjoy the food , she kept bombarding me with questions
about what happen last week while she was away. turns out she really did go check the condo cameras and she knows more than i expect . it was so scary i tell you, and she made me spill everything out . so yea , she knows now ):

ohoh thursday was lianne's birthday . so to miss the mass in the morning and to celebrate it , we headed off to the airport and had a real fulfilling birthday breakfast at Breeks cafe . its 24hours haahhaah , so next time uh, in the middle of the night . . . it'll be a good place to spend there (:
but ah wells , i think no more of that until prolly exams are over .
yeah so anyway after that we went to enjoy the deliciously sinful warm chocolate cake at Starbucks , it was heavenly but kinda too chocolatey . the couches were really comfortable that we attempted to nap for awhile , haha ! it was unsuccessful though . then we were late already so cabbed all the way back to school at recess . turns out the mass ended earlier than expected . oh wells didnt miss out on much anyway (:

ohmg this is like so so embarrassing/annoying !
my dad's like asking me about my personal life now , making me admit it !
gosh , there's no way i'm gonna admit it , i mean to my parents ?
its like , i'm so not gonna tell you kinda thing !


KH says:
must be something .....
KH says:
like got some feeling like that ???
vanessa ; its unpredictable , its unseen . says:
but its not affecting my studies what
KH says:
haha .. so you admit
vanessa ; its unpredictable , its unseen . says:
admit what?
KH says:
that you got some feeling for him
vanessa ; its unpredictable , its unseen . says:
no laa..
KH says:
wait wait.... if got no feeling why talk on the phone till the wee hours of the night
vanessa ; its unpredictable , its unseen . says:
as normal friends what
vanessa ; its unpredictable , its unseen . says:
i also talk to my other friends until the wee hours of the night
KH says:
hahaha,,, your other friends are girl friends, talking to boy for so long sure got something
vanessa ; its unpredictable , its unseen . says:
noooooooo .

school school , the past three days . well it wasnt so bad just that i had such a hard time keeping myself awake for the first two days . today was much much better thanks to my 4hour long nap yesterday (: oh and time really passes so darn fast . everyone keeps reminding us prelims is in 2 months . and yeah thats a good reason why i should actually be studying like now . the days hadnt gone quite well too , all because of my mom finding out more stuff and all . and now she's taking away my phone every night , its hell unfair . i'm in need of just buying the mango denim shorts then i'll be fine and not shop for a very long time , i promise . anyway i'm grounded too so yeah . she found out la , i'm quite sure she knows more than she's supposed to know on what we did while she was away . and that totally sucks big time .

oh great my phone bill just came . i'm in effing deep shit with my mother , again . she's f-ing angry and i bet now she's gonna take away my phone for good . whats this world coming to . whats with my mom . its gonna be another night spoiled by her , AGAIN .

its like a sunday evening now and tomorrow school will start again . oh wow i so cant wait man . yeah, right . these two days have been like total crap , mom came back and she found out about the things i've been doing while she was away. and like now everything isnt really going the way as planned . argh church. i didnt even want to go today. inside i feel sick and tired of everything , and now my throat hurts too .
where are you when i need you;

these past two days has been FUN FUN FUN (: adrina came to stay over yesterday . we met up with those bikers last night again , just chilling by that rooftop playground . thanks to me , there was a kiss going on HAHA .

woke up real late today and we went shopping at marina and raffles . HAHA there's some tv commercial interview thingy thats going on tmr . and they called us to go down for it . hahha woooww i can't wait (: mom's coming back tmr , heard loads from her and the shopping paradise in shanghai . it was like heaven that she bought 10 pairs of shoes for us . haha yay there's no bio tuition tmr night so finally going shopping again with mich and lianne again .

oh yeah tonight there's gonna be fun again . adrina's staying over again . tsk , waiting for her to come back from hafiz's house now . this is so annoying la , they dont wanna let her come home . haha and we have plans for later again la .

gosh something scary just happened . but luckily everything is still okay .

seriously some people are starting to get on my nerves . so irritating . well thanks loads, girlfriends . we've all been through it and cant stand her !

YOU'RE MY OCTOPUS (:

HAHAHAHAHAH

OCTOPUS AND SOTONG <3

oh wowwhee . today was like so FUN (: ! went shopping and eating at newyork2 ! met adrina darl and we headed off to bugis in search of clothes and accessories. spent a bomb at diva today . gosh . ah wellls then we met the two and went off to newyork2 to eat . oh i'm in love with the food there (: stayed there for like so long , hahah it was so retarded . then met (:(: on the way home hahah yayyaye (: muacks .

i've just been thinking , and come to realise how much i lost touch with Him . i wonder where that fire and joy in knowing and serving Him has gone . and you know what, i feel guilty and maybe a little down at times. which make me realise how much life isn't complete without Him in it. at times like these when our relationship isn't going strong , i feel like there's an empty space in my heart. and i feel the empty space giving me that nagging feeling that i have to do something about it . and at times like these , circumstances in my life change , circumstances that make me realise that i can't do without Him , that its impossible not to have Him in my life . and then i remember about this special 'conscience' that i have , the one that speaks to me so clearly , guiding me through decisions . i can't ignore this conscience , or else it'll just disappear altogether one day. and i dont want it too . sigh there're so many issues in my life right now that i know i have to deal with . i haven't been going strong , but sometimes its just so difficult to get back on track with God , because after awhile i'll tend to stray again . oh someone help me please.

today morning was scary. HOW ON EARTH COULD SHE HAVE SUSPECTED? like its so random that she called so early in the morning , cos usually we're all still sleeping . like as though she had KNOWN it was gonna happen . what if there're like cameras around that i dont know of! omg i'm seriously so scared , she can be the sneakiest person on earth ! but thankfully , it wasn't that bad , on the positive side (: thank God ? i guess and hope so , for giving us a chance .
on the other hand , some parts of the morning just makes me smile (: hahahah , cute wasn't it ?

church today was like kinda . . . zzzxx . there was literally no one present . sigh why is it always like that! but anyways went to find adrina darling after service . hahahahaha jing-a-lingling ! okay i feel so bad now , i better stop before karma gets back at me . then she came over for awhile , and we pigged out on B&J from the tub. oh shiok (: sigh fatties . looks like that stupid 28day exercise and diet plan didnt really work out. i'm so undisciplined ! see la , thanks to someone who told me that for sure i wouldnt carry it out everyday ): positive encouragement from the start would help alot ,thank you. hahahah oh wells . the week ahead's gonna be interesting ! and craaazzyyy too (: and its the LAST week of the hols. i havent started studying . can someone kill me please . i'm so worried . i want to slap myself to wake up and hello , its like only about four months left , vanessa! what the hell is wrong with you?! okay i vow to become a full time studying student 24/7 once school starts . thats a nicer way to tell myself i shall be a nerd . HAHA okay whatever .

Love is when you give someone the power to hurt you , but trust them not to .

so many things have been happening in just a matter of a night ! thursday night , oh wowwow . adrina came to stay over after dance , yes i went for it (: and learnt some new songs too. sigh i miss going there so much . after that it was like woah, as if it were a dream . but it happened . and it was crazy , as usual . HAHA . darlings sha and adrina came over today. and oh man , sadistic! haha oh welllls . we had fun today , and more to come! (:
glad everythings fine now, i owe you one darl .

love LOVE <3

Last night was the bombzxs ! hahah crazy crazy us and everything went so smoothly (: had loads of fun but still without you there , it made such a difference. i'm sorry i'm always telling you last minute but you were always on my mind and i've been missing you so much. you mean more to me now than ever .

oh and yesterday morning i had the ultimate shock of my life! suddenly woke up at like around 6plus to see my maid and that girl standing in front of me beside my bed! like wth is she doing in my house AGAIN? was so freakin pissed because i've been missing out on my sleep for the past few nights, and here she is disrupting my sleep again. but after hearing her story on her stepdad trying to kill her and she jumping down three storeys to escape i let her stay . she was crying and begging my maid to let her in somemore, what can i do. went to school in the morning and mom got a shock to see her . came home and called adrina and she came over. gosh we were so evil to keep on trying to think of ways to get her out of the house . HAHA (: we finally did it after mom gave her a long lecture cos we found out her story was fake! then the both of us pigged out on swensons and ben and jerrys before heading down to cine to some pool place or something to meet adrina's (: and his friends. then went back home again together and discussed more about plans for the tonight !


Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
Cause I wanna hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself instead of calamity
Peace, Serenity

wednesday night was sexy love <3

me and mich got skirts from topshop at cheap cheap! after bio tuition on thursday night, we were delirious (:

went shopping at bugis with kim on friday. we both got our grey skinnies and dresses ! yayay then relieved old memories and took loads of retarded pics in the neoprint machines . hahah met dawn and ivana halfway , who were really late . then me and kim decided to head home .

ate a really sinful supper at swensons after bio tuition with mich , mom and sis . there goes our diet plan again , sigh . but we only live once anyway.

trained to bugis again with mich and lianne on saturday . tried to search for more dresses but nothing found. then met adrina at parkway after that and omg we had the fun-nest time of our life at harris ! absolute craziness HAHA. then met shawn and had dinner at fish and co ! we managed to convince her to buy us a cocktail too (:

fishy maria (:

walked around at parkway after dinner and the both of us started having laughing fits at diva. HAHAHAH the gigantic hairclips and the scarf ! then went to topshop and we bought the cute undies too! then adrina had to go and me and shawn headed to tiff and sha's house for the movie marathon. hahahha watched one movie and i already felt sleepy. but anyway talked with sha until almost 7 then we fell asleep.

hospitality thingy the next day for church. bleah smelly caps! hahah had a toilet session then celebrated tiffany's birthday after service and went back to sha's house with adrina. we had the ultimate sharing session there man! talked about , hahahah stuff! and made super exciting plans too (: suddenly when i think again , i realised how much our friendship has grown since two years ago , when it was mostly still about petty lies and gossips about each other. now everythings changed, we all have changed too , and we've still got each other (: went home and the craziest thing happened in the middle of the night! i barely know this girl and she stayed over at my house haha! but then again , its always good to help others . but i hardly slept again !

don't ask. HAHA (:

today is the start of my 28day exercise and diet plan thanks to cleo ! and this time , i promise myself that i MUST stick to it or else !

hmm . i realised that i've been neglecting God lately. and i feel real bad about it . i guess , when things are all tangled up in knots and when i feel like a complete mess , He'll be the one who'll be there for me , giving me the assurance no one else can , mending a broken heart. not that i'm actually having one now la, but yeah . sigh i need Him . to feel the warmth of your embrace again , thats what i need most right now. i'm afraid of the future , because i think i might not be able to handle it well . i need you Lord , to help me . should anything happen. and i'm sorry for everything that i did the past few weeks that hurt you . sigh

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM !

WEEKEND:

went shopping before bio tuition (: found out i have stupid makeup classes this wed, thurs and friday.

collected my black pinafore dress on saturday yay (:
then went to the movie marathon with sha .

church yesterday.
we were late .
went to satisfy our macs craving before that.
then it was cell at my house .

no school for me today . hah had chem tuition after that. what a bore.

BITCHES

pics credits to sha (:

this song's been playing nonstop in my head the entire day! hahahah me and mich were blasting it and singing on the way home just now (:

Gwen Stefani - 4 In The Morning

Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I'm lying here in the dark
I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot

& all I know is
You've got to give me everything
Nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?

& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love up for me
We can't escape the love
Give me everything that you have

FINALLY , THE PICTURES!

getting ready for sentosa day!

siloso (: beach

the soup spoon (:

lipgloss. compact and mascara .

toilet pics

and there's more too , hahah but the rest are private (: more to come !