my gosh. noe wad? i totally feel that life is completely unfair. i wish tat i could like go stay in another country like aussie where i can have a stressed free life with not much pressure from all e school work and everything. den it'll be so wonderful. everyone there is like sooo relaxed and everything. haiz. why do i have to live in this country where like everyone is so kiasu bout everyting.?? argh. maybe i just need to go shopping. but somehow i suddenly miss perth and the wonderful relaxed life i had there once. i dunno. life is confusing. i really really wanna super get away from everything right now. i just wish like i could go someplace nice and shop. and enjoy a stressed free life with all my darlings.
yeahh. my mind's like in a total whirl now. i've been feeling really confused lately. like sometimes i wish that i could find that special someone. den the next min i start thinkin bout school and how much i need to buck up. den i start thinkin of going shopping . den suddenly i feel like going for the *** thing. whats wrong with me? is this normal? hmmms. yupps then now i feel like really down and depressed kind. i wanna go enjoy the high life. like going to fancy restaurants, buying whatever i want. but still. thats not all to life, i shouldn't be feeling this way. maybe all i need rite now is God. i need him back in my life again. maybe when i have god , i don't need all tyhese material possesions to cheer me up. haiz. dunno what to do.

its like yesterday mom found the pics in the bloody recycle bin in the com. stupid bin. why must store it there when i already deleted them?? argh suck. who knows what other pics there are in there. and she saw all of them . i feel my privacy's like being exposed. and now. everythings not going smoothly. i might not be able to even stay over and tues nite at lianne's place. haiz. dunno dunno dunno dunno. humph. i wanna sleep a deep sleep and den wake up to a better place. leve all my troubles FOREVER!! whee~